I just want to offer my encouragement and hugs. I also had my one and only ever Depo shot March of this year and it has made my life really horrible since then.
Here's the backstory- I was so excited to start my first job since having two babies and staying home for 7 years so the last thing I wanted was to get pregnant. I was due to for a tubal in exactly three months so I thought I'd get the depo shot to tide me over till then.
I started working and it was horrible. Not the job, which I loved, but my emotions. I felt like I had just had a baby again and was going through the baby blues all over again. Crying for no reason, missing my daughters like crazy when I was at work, like way more than was normal. This was something I worked towards for so long! We even got an Au pair who was lovely and sweet but I had so much anger and resentment towards her which is not like me at all!! We really thought all these decisions through and "courted" this Au Pair for a long time before we settled on her (meaning lots of Skype chats and emails!). So there was no reason to hate her?! I was anxious all the time too and just so depressed. So I quit my job and the au pair had to find a new family (which she was excited for her new
location so at least there was that).
I'm still pretty emotional but starting to get better. I've only had one period since March when i started (end of June). I started therapy and went back on anxiety meds which I have been on in the past, completely unrelated to BC since I wasn't on any. I was on them for a year and self weaned because I felt so fab. And felt fab starting work too, things were looking so up! I loved that job so much but my emotions were making me crazy.
The only positive thing that's come out of this is I treasure my kids way more now because I'm constantly in tears about
them growing up and not being cute and little and sweet anymore. I'm sure my husband is sick of hearing me say through tears that I want everyone to stay just the way they are. I felt this exact same way the 12 weeks after giving birth all three times so I'm certain it's all hormonal and from the Depo. I treasured them before but now I'm more patient and give them more of myself which probably isn't healthy because I need to be taking care of myself right now too! Im anxious all the time that one of my kids will get gravely injured or sick.
I'm so over this and feeling sad, anxious, depressed. I don't think my meds have helped me yet but last time I was on them, it took two months to kick in and then suddenly I felt fantastic. However this time I'm on a new med because I told my provider I was afraid of the Zoloft taking too long to kick in so she gave me Wellbutrin which she says would work faster. If my hormones are really or of whack and that's the cause of this, will anti anxiety meds even work?
I don't know if I should stay on these meds or try something new. The only thing that really helps is Ativan if I'm having a really bad day! I'm not sitting around depressed in bed all day, but I definitely should be happier, I want to feel like my old self. I never used to get sentimental over Things like a pair of well loved pajamas no longer fitting my youngest daughter but now that's something that can send me into tears for days. My friends would ask me if sorting out old clothes made me sad and I'd smugly think "no good riddance old holey clothes!", I want to go back to that!
I know this medication destroyed my shot at a career and has ruined me emotionally for half a year now. I would so love to start a class action lawsuit against this company!
I would love to share my story more with you which is pretty similar and compare notes about
how you're doing now, mid-August, since we both got a shot in March. I don't mind putting my email here, I am really bad at forum stuff!
I removed your email because it isn't safe on an
open forum. You could get tons of spam.
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