Anxiety getting in the way....

Keep up the meditation and mindfulness. You got a lot on your plate right now. Have you thought about seeing somebody and getting some anti anxiety medication? Or is that possible? Just thinking you could use a little help during this time.

I hate phone calls too. I don't know why. It is one of the hardest things for me to do, talk on the phone. So I totally understand what you mean. Procrastination. I don't talk well in front of people though. I doubt I could even do what you are doing now. All the organizing, seeing all those people. I am thinking you are doing a lot. A lot more than some could. Try to go easy on yourself. I make phone calls best in the morning before I have too much time to think about it. Maybe that would help you too. The longer I put it off, the harder it gets.

Awesome about your mom's letter. Awesome you found it. That is something I have never thought about. Kind of cool. Especially if we can look down and see it and hear it read. That alone makes me teary.

I wish you strength in the phone calls. You are doing wonderful with this, I hope you know that.

Take care Myself.

Hugs, Karen...

am proud of ya. my mum read out her sis letter,
she had her sis son and daughter by her side,
for strength and harmony. and because she was using
a walker. mum did real well. never seen me mum do
something like this. have two pillars next to you, each side.
keep strong. it was a big service too. you got this.

Hi Love

In today's society It's very easy to hide behind emails and text messages which is a real problem. I hear a lot of people say that they hate the telephone, which I always think is an avoidance excuse which has nothing to do with the telephone but everything to do with the person who 'hates' the phone. I would challenge yourself and try to figure out what it is that you are avoiding and own it. We are ultimately in control of what we think and how we feel and much of what we feel is about us, but it's easier to blame other people, we do it all of the time Perhaps you can practice making some calls and pay close attention to what you think and feel and try to change that, or don't think about it and just throw yourself into it, it's probably the avoidance that's creating the anxiety if you just do it and get it out of the way you won't feel anxious after all it's just a phone call

Hi
I'm so sorry about mom I think you ve handled everything well u r very strong indeed...
Sending you hugs and kisses

Hi Myself. I am glad that your anxiety is lessening now. I'm not the best at responding, but I have been sending many positive vibes your way. I am sure that your mother would have been very proud of you. It sounds like you planned a wonderful service for her, yourself and family/friends. While you will continue to obviously miss your mom, hopefully, the anxiety will continue to lessen for you. Sending ((((hugs)))) your way! Cass