Posted 4/21/2018 8:51 PM (GMT 0)
I've read a lot about depression and anxiety and the cycles that people have.
Mine seems to follow a shorter and more predictable pattern though. I will feel fine, not manic, or even hypomanic (my genetic testing says to rule out bipolar) for about 5-7 days and then all of a sudden I will predictably have a transition day where I feel it coming back again. Then I have 4-5 really awful nightmarish days. Anxiety and just a physically ill feeling in the morning which slowly turns into a deep depression. I get pretty much every symptom in the book for anxiety and depression during this time. Right when I think I can't take it anymore, boom, I feel that transition day of feeling ok again. I've been going through this for some time. On my good days I just want to get my life back together and on my bad ones I just want to hide under the covers and sleep (although restlessness stops me from doing so)
I'm trying meds, but won't get into that because it's complicated. But I've had these cycles, the timing can change, for a long time now. Wondering if anyone else can relate. I am a male to add to the confusion, so it does not have to do with a menstrual cycle etc.
Doesn't seem to matter if I manage triggers etc. It's just on this schedule. Kind of feels like my body is going through a detox from hell when I'm on my bad days.
Help!