Which Emotion Is The Hardest For You To Deal With?

For me i have come to the realization that emotion and feeling an emotion is important but does not always equate to being emotional. Digress i have but my angst for self as being problematic is the episodic nature of feeling more than being emotive; if it be sadness or whatever. HT something to ponder.

I feel like I have acted sad for so long that it has brought on depression

Depression would be toughest, but not the kind felt when someone doesn't have the medical condition. Long ago, I experienced "depression" when, say, being rejected by girls, not getting into colleges, losing something very valuable, etc. All that was very different from now. I don't think clinical depression is an emotion as much as a lack of emotions combined with a toxic kind of pain that destroys everything. Whatever it is, that's the worst.

A warm welcome to Legend and Paul.

You definitely are not alone, we are here to support and validate. You have already seen, people experience the same issues here.

Mike, another interest and pondering topic. Did you working in the mental health care field?

HT so enlightening, I can say I experience the same.

Anger is one of big emotions and I fight hard not to suppress it, so automatic! The other is worthlessness, this is a constant battle, alot of days hour to hour. I don't know if this will ever go away. Logically I know it is not true, but there it is all the same.

I wish everyone peace and strength
Trina

My problem is self-hate. I can't really say I deal much with anxiety, panic, stress, nervousness, or any of that stuff, for that matter. I just have depression. I guess I am fortunate in that respect!

Anger is a hard one for me too. I don't get angry very often, but when I do, I don't have much control. I don't like it either.

NSSG, I am sorry you have self hate. You are a really cool person and I always liked you a lot. I hope you can learn self love.

Hugs to all...

Karen...

I would like to say some things that I have learned in therapy and reading books.

In know way and I assuming anyone does not know this information, I am sharing just in case, there is someone that is new to depression and the struggles and emotions it brings.

Anger, has Hurt hiding behind it. If a person can do calm breathing, perhaps do a body scan, they can find the
the emotions behind the anger. Journaling can help bring out the emotions also. Some prompts would be:

What am I anger about?
I can I do anything about my anger?
How long have I been angry?

Just write, don't worry about spelling, grammar, punctuation etc. This is just for you. No one else has to read it. Keep going, write what ever comes into your head.

Leave it. Come back in 4hrs or more, maybe the next day, read it. I like to make notes in a colored pen on things that stand out, connect some dots for me, or realizations that explain my anger.

NEXT, self-hate. This is a persons core belief. You have been "conditioned" in some way to believe that you are not worthy of anything,
This not true. Everyone has value. Everyone is worthy.
CBT. Cognitive based therapy helps some people with this. The Book, Mindfulness Based Self-Compassion by Germer Ph.d, helped be very much.

Practicing Self- Compassion takes time and dedication. It does work. Eventually you will notice days where you feel good, happy, confident. They come sparingly at first. I think it will be a life time work, at least for me.
But is gets easier every day.

I hope this helps someone.
Peace and strength
Trina

Yep great sharing...and of everyone for doing so. It aides in understanding awareness healing and compassion. HT

Haaa yes Karen anger. I get it. I am dealing anger right now.

However I think fear tops it for me currently.

Received a card from my abusive, minipulative, and sneaky brother. Wants me to "call him when I think I can."

Have not talked to him in 7 years. I don't even have his number anymore. I have a suspicion my husband is in touch with him. There is no reason for brother to contact me after all this time. However, husband wanted me committed 2 years ago. Brother was biggest trigger back in the day.

I am slowing turning the fear into anger and will of course throw this out with the trash where it belongs.

Peace
Trina

Thanks Karen,

Rough night, thank you. I am much better today! grounded and focused.

Let my neighbor. with cameras, and all about the possible unwelcome visitors. He was a cop then a guard at the prison in Camden NJ. so his house and cut de sac is safer that fort dix!!LOL

I hope everyone has a good day. It so dark out here raining that I have a light on.

Peace
Trina