I’m hurting

alice,

someone above replied that this is unfair. i cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling. everything about the last few months has made no sense. my condolences for your great loss. i'm so sorry you've been dropped on a foreign planet. may you continue to heal, and have happy memories of the time you had with your husband.

Hi Alice,

Listened to the birds singing again this morning. I heard blue jays though and they are more squacky than singing. But it is a lovely morning. Cloudy though but not raining. It rained yesterday afternoon and last night. Though we need rain, I want some sun.

I would love to hear from you through email. I will ask you to email me since yours isn't in your profile. Mine is.

I bet it is sad your dogs are waiting for your husband. It would be the same here if that happened. She loves him so much. She always has. Took to him right away. But when people come over she sticks by me. Right by my side.

My husband has been the one going to the stores and shopping. I haven't been out at all except one therapy session. I worry so much. I can't wait for this to be over. We are still on lock down until May 15. But the governor has lightened restrictions for a few things. It just scares the hell out of me.

I stopped Luna's allergy meds this morning. She hasn't been chewing since the heater stove isn't coming on all the time. I think it was giving her itchy and dry skin. She gets supplements for her coat and an egg each morning so I hope that will be enough now. The meds get expensive even though I get them from chewy.

My husband's sister died in March. Not from corona though, from liver failure. I been trying to sketch her for about a month. I am getting closer to it looking like her but for a long time it looked like Jody Arias. She had a delightful smile and big brown eyes. I hope it turns out even with corrections. I hope to make copies and send to her children.

I hope to hear from you when you have time. I will be waiting for an email. No rush though, I imagine you have a lot going on. Have a good day today. I hope your weather is nice.

Love and hugs Alice,

Karen...

Myself,

Is it you? Did you change your name a little? I have missed you.

Hugs, Karen...

HI Alice,

Thanks for the email. It was so nice to read.

I hope you have a good day. Raining here, yucky.

Not much going on per usual.

Hugs, Karen...

Hi Karen,

I got your email, thank you for sharing. Today was dank and dreary and for some reason it felt like Thursday all day. Drove me crazy! Tomorrow is supposed to be rainy all the way into Friday. I’m so tired of rain, followed by rain, with another scoop of rain. It doesn’t help my mood.

Hi Myself,

You have to do what is right for you and your peace of mind. If that means stepping away, then that is the right course of action.

I’m so glad you have been busy teaching, and gardening and researching your gf. Are you on ancestry dot com or are you looking up things independently? I’m on a.c, and I love when I find either a ‘character’ or a current family member looking for info. You hear so many stories. It can be fun or very frustrating. I do hope you continue to learn about your unusual gf. Are they going to have those garden plots available this year? You really seemed to enjoy your time there. I hope your students are well. It must have been a very stressful time for them and for you. I’m glad you were able to at least stock up ahead of time.

Besides my grief, my anger is at an all time high. Your second paragraph contains my thoughts. If I expand on it, I will be asked to leave. I pray every day to reroute my thought process. Not for anyone else’s benefit, just mine. Still, I will never be able to forgive.

Anyway, I just wanted to say, glad to see you back.

God bless. Alice.

Hi guys. HT.
Great sharin' n carin'. Can't sleep.

Ancestry was the start--over a year ago. It has broadened out extremely since then. I was looking up something else--and realized I had never searched for my paternal grandfather, who I never met. His children would never talk about him at all. I fed in his name, and got a 1920 FBI file, back when the FBI was brand new. I followed the breadcrumbs, and amassed information from 1891 until about 1933 or so, organized labor, socialism, American Federation of Labor, and a LOT of stuff combined. I started writing. Then, I found another angle of investigation through a genealogical site called wikitree, where you share your work with others and find common ancestors. This new angle came from an Irishman working on the Irish Civil War period (1918-1920s) and concerns my grandfather's work in World War II, from 1936-1946. My grandfather wrote the US congressional report on conditions in Ireland after the Civil War ended, which is what brought him to the attention of this researcher. I will stop here at the moment. Otherwise, it can go on forever.

I try to put the political wrangling to the side as much as possible--what matters are the people caught up in this mess and trying to make it through as well as possible, and the long term impact of the pandemic. It is easy to be distracted by the national and international foolishness. One of my beginning level kids disappeared for a few weeks, and came back with a shaved head and a worried expression. Online, there is no way to know what happened there, and I cannot ask. One of my older students has been a bit manic--she is high strung, tho.

I have my two plots and they are starting to grow. Putting in the winter squash and starting the peppers today. Have already picked broccoli rabe and radishes, as well as some spring onions. Oh--and some carrots which overwintered! My mini grow room did well this winter with seedlings.

I am glad to read that all is mostly well, Karen. Keep your fingers crossed that your corner of the country stays safe. All I can do is stay away from people, wash my hands, and offer eye contact above my mask. Be kind to others--kindness never goes out of style.

Hi Jamie!

Hi, Everyone,

Sorry for being MIA yesterday, it ended up being a lot busier than I had expected. I’m finally off the quarantine list, but still under medical care for a few wks. I had a visit from the visiting nurse, calls from several different therapists re future treatments. The social worker called to see about grief therapy. I said I would be interested in group grief therapy, which might take a bit bc of social distancing. Ok. When the day was over, so was I!

Karen,

Canning your goods sounds like a great idea! I’ve never done that. My garden was never that big, and I grew veggies that basically went to the table, or some for family. I’m the only one who likes to garden in my family.
I have the same problem w words. I know what I want to say, but can’t remember the words or even how they are spelled. I’m talking basic phonics, what that beginning sound is for the word. Draw a complete blank!! I blame it on fibromyalgia. The brain takes a vacay, while I stand here going, ummm, ummm.

Jamie,

Hope you have gotten some rest since your post. Hope you’re doing well! 🐢🐢

Myself,

I love the story about your gf! You said you were writing. I think this would make a great story. Are you thinking of publishing this or just for your own interests?
I’m sorry to hear about the students you mentioned, I do hope things are better for them at home, no losses. Of course, you can’t ask. It was foolish of me to ask. I apologize.
Good to hear you have two plots, and already producing. I wish you a bounty of veggies this year.
My DSIL bought my DD a small indoor garden so she could grow veggies for her rabbit, year round. My DD loves veggies, so the poor rabbit has to share w her. smh

True words, kindness never goes out of style. A good reminder. Pls all of you stay safe and healthy!

God bless. Alice.

Sleep...what is it!

Hi myself. Hi karen hi irish babe. Hi everyone.

Sending 💪 to yas all. May peace and compassion be with you. HT