Daily Check In Thread For All #204

Just numb. Not happy, not sad...just numb.

Sorry Pitmom. I was actually replying to Green Beans post. I am sorry you are not feeling good. I have heard that there is a place between depression and thriving called "languishing" that a lot of people are in due to the pandemic. I would imagine it's worse for those of us with depression. I feel like I am in that spot.

Bad day. Having a hard time moving. Meetings today with both my therapist and my med nurse who both suggested simple things for me to do today but I could not. Rained today which didn't help. Tomorrow I'll try to find something interesting to do to get out of the house.

Sending many healing thoughts. Blue skies load of washing out, got another ready, linen.
Assisted my colleagues client on self managing her plan. NDIS. Have another session with her Tuesday.
A little step back into the field, yay.
Had Pfizer jab yesterday and the free intense massage on wed, and still sore, a good thing.

Keep strong, HT

Peace to all
Have ups and downs myself
wishing you all my best

I'm heading out to Florida tomorrow to see family. I'm happy to be leaving NY although it's for a few weeks. I'm looking forward to a change of scenery.

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well, and to those who aren't, hang in there. I'm learning to take things one day at a time.

Hello all. I'm still holding on.

The garden is doing well. Strawberries forming nicely...more lettuce than I can eat by myself...sugar snap peas up about 10 inches...cucumbers getting their first 'true' leaves...kiwi vine getting new growth...finally found a tomato transplant that will work for me, 'Sun Sugar', a yellow/orange cherry tomato.

We've been extremely dry and hot here already. Had to buy a new hose for the sprinkler because I couldn't get the hand held nozzle off the hose I have! Cloudy and cool here today...a nice break...and a good day to deeply water with the sprinkler.

The honeysuckle has loads of buds. The cat mint is blooming like crazy. The mauve columbine are going strong and I actually have one deep purple one this year, too! I've moved some of my potted canna to one of the back flower beds...their height should do nicely at the back of the bed against the house. I still have to figure out where to plant the pineapple sage this year.

MIL continues to improve...my dog Tyson continues to deteriorate. See-Saw of emotions.

Today is my daughter's 39th birthday. Not sure if I'll be seeing her. Wish I knew for sure so I'd know if I should get to the store and get a cake mix. It's not usually cool enough for me to bake!

Hi all. Turned out I did see my daughter on her birthday...no baking though...she wanted a Carvel ice cream cake!

Still haven't found anyone to do the repairs on my home, so I guess I'm pulling out my power tools and figuring out how to do it myself. I just wish I hadn't lost so much of my strength. This is going to be brutal. Not to mention the fact that I must 'work around' the dogs and be sure to have solid flooring by the end of each day since Tyson is having his DM issues and his life is tough enough.

I don't leave my house the last few days. Lisa and I had gone to do the shopping (about 2 hours) and when we got home...the dogs were out in the yard!! Somehow, they'd pushed through the back door, even though I had it shut with a bungee cord! No idea how long they'd been out there...in the heat...with no water...and no way back inside! I need this repair work done sooooo badly!! My house is not secure and it's against the mobile home park rules to leave the dogs out unattended...and the last thing I need right now is an issue with the Landlord!

It's been so hot with no rain here. I'm about to pull the lettuce plants and plant something else in their spot. Maybe carrots. Succession planting is new to me, so this will be a first attempt. I've enjoyed many salads and sandwiches using the lettuce, but at this point they'll be getting bitter, so it's time to switch crops.

Trina, yes, I've tried Nextdoor. That was the first one to ghost me on the job. Next was a friend of a friend of my daughter's. Last was a friend of my son. No one wants to work on mobile homes.

GreenBeans, I'm sorry about your father's diagnosis. But I'm glad the Lyrics is helping you.

I restarted the Abilify again this week. I decided that the small risks it had were out weighed by the risks inherent in bad lifestyle choices brought on by depression. I hate to be taking 3 medications for depression, but it is what it is.

Exciting news! We finally have leaves on our trees up here! I mowed my lawn for the first time yesterday. The daffodils are winding down, but nothing else is up yet. I am leaving on Saturday to drive to California for two weeks, so I don't want to plant anything else until I get back. I spent last weekend with my husband at his farm since his mother had just passed away. He is doing OK. It is a busy time for him, which helps. He's not really a husband any more, but he's still a friend.

Many healing thoughts to all.

At times, when darkness creeps in, we get stuck in the dirty black hole;
For the dark to break it needs light, it requires it from us all, this light is compassion. HT

Hi Weary and Jamie
Peace!

Hi Forever,

I am still here, just been lurking. Thanks for asking.

Meditation just takes practice. I do it every night to fall asleep. It takes my mind off of all that thinking I do.

Walking is excellent. Glad you found some calming videos.

Take care Forever and have a nice weekend.

Hugs, Karen...