Hey in and out, I am really sorry that you have so much going on in your life. You did say in one of your posts that you lived with your grandmother right? Are you close to her and able to talk to her? Hurting yourself is not going to help anything or anyone. All it will do is leave you with a scar to remember for the rest of your life. I would suggest that you ask to see your doctor or try to make an appointment as soon as possible. Please take care you are in my thoughts and prayers....