melt down

I am going through a melt down.  I have not been sleeping well, this has been going on for weeks.  My body has now started to break down.  I have spent the day shaking and my arms and hands have been tingling.  I don't trust my thoughts and I know my memory has lost itself.  Mentally I am at the end of my rope.  To top it off my husband and I are not speaking.  At this point I don't see much left to hang on to.  Death maynot be the answer but it is looking mighty inviting.  Does anyone really care, I think not.  My meds are not working the way they should and quite frankly, I don't feel like my doc cares anymore.

Too much to do, to much stress and a brain that refuses to work.

Hi wisdom54,  When you have depression it is so important to try to get enough sleep or rest and eat properly.  If your sleep patterns have been disturbed for several weeks for whatever the reason then it is going to cause an increase in symptoms.  Stress of any kind can cause sleep disturbances, and if it goes on for an extended period of time you should report it to your physician.  You said that your already taking meds and dont feel they are working how they should?  Depending on how long you have been on them, so meds start to lose their effect the longer that you take them.  I had this problem with Zoloft and ended up being extremely depressed and having thoughts of self harm before I even went to get them switched.  As Janet said you always do have the option of switching doctors if you dont feel that yours is being receptive to your plan of care.  But either way you need to be proactive and get seen as soon as possible.  I am going to post some links from our Web Site on suicide resources just in case you feel that you may need them, if you do please do use them.  We are always here so please feel free to continue to post, this is a wonderful place for support.  Take care http://suicidehotlines.com/ http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/ http://suicidal.com/depressionandsuicide/

I am taking Celexa in the morning and Remeron at night and it has really helped me with sleep. I hope you find some relief soon.

Hi wisdom, Im sorry you are having such a hard time, my best friend is going through something like this, it takes its toll. I have had to talk to her about it and try to make her look at the finer side of life,.....but if you need someone to talk to, id be happy to listen, there are people that care, i have met more on this site than in real life. I will put my email addy up just in case you decide to talk, you can look at my profile to get it, but i wont promise how long i will leave it up ;) i wish you the best, ive had many times i wanted to give up, but im so glad i didnt. Life goes on, and it can get better. hugs,
shell

Wisdom, I'm so sorry you are going through such a hard time. I have been down that road myself and it is the most difficult thing to pull yourself out of. But it can be done, go to a good sychiatrist and get the proper meds you need that will help you. Also counseling can help. I know you are probably at a point where you don't feel up to doing anything to help yourself and I can understand that. But life is worth living and what you are going through will not last forever if you get the help you so desperately need. You have people here that care about you and will help you in anyway we can. When your ready to talk there will be someone here to listen. You are not alone. I hope you feel better about everything in your life real soon. Hang in there, and don't give up. You will be in my Prayers. ((HUGS))

Wanda