atedogs said...
Are you physcially going to a place to rehab or going to try it yourself. I checked into a hospital and was given valuim to keep from freaking and hurting. If you are doing it on you own go really slowly or it will make you physcially and mentally sick. Best thing to do is ask your doc or councellor. Good Luck Im clean 14 years and best thing I've done.
Im going to do it myself.
I just got a 4th offense DWI.(hadnt had a ticket in four and a haldf yrs then bam!
I was in a holding cell that was freezing and grossly overcrowded. I was detoxing from alcohol(20 yrs of drinking regularly, like every other day and detoxing from the xanax and ambian)
I was inthe holding cell for 8 days. Their detox cinsisted of 4 days. for two days they gave me a whole valium in the morning and evening for two days then the last two days they only gave me a half in the morning and night. It wasnyt enough at all. They had to rush me to the Emergency medical and give me a shot of Thorizine because i started hearing things. They then started giving me a valium in the morning and night plus a klonopin too. It helped a lil but i was still a wreck being in an overcrowded jail. Im clean cut, educated and am not jail type at all. I can hold my own but people can see the nervousness
I want to get myself off these meds in case I have to go to an inpatient rehab. I have severe anxiety but they said no Benzos. I attribute my depression to the circumstances ive put myself in....not a chemical imbalance. I could be wrong but when life goes smooth Im one of the happiest people you'd ever meet.
I havent had a drink in 38 days but do have cravings. More now than when i first started going without a drink. I dont understand that. Seems it would get easier.
Im exxtremely anxious because i have to depend on everybody around me...im forced to go to an AA meeting everyday but they took my licence, my girlfriend is getting agotated more easily(I know because of the situation) And my dad had to come out of pocket with $13,000.00. $3000.00 to get me out and 10,000.00 for a lawyer so i dont go to jail.
I need that Xanax. After 8 yrs of not having insurance and getting non-narcotic meds(Elvil) that just knock you out...finally I have insurance and a doctor that recognizes that xanax enables me to relax and function. Granted i went overboard on them and thats why the detoxing is so hard.
Thats my story, sorry so long but sometimes i just feel like the world is caving in on me.
Thanks so much for the concern.