I need someone to really talk to!!! PLZ!

I try to be hopeful, but everytime I smile and try to pick myself up..something always comes and knocks me down harder than b4... matter of fact...this mornin on my way to school my boyfriends mom called... asking me all types of questions, trying to get smart, just because Im trying to help better her son... so I missed 2 busses to school... and am stuck here waiting on the 1:30 bus so I can atleast take my last class... and I know...Im gonna hear more bull**** from atleast 2 other people today...

Also... can depression take a toll on yourr body.....cuz I haven't ben able to eat much for the past 4 weeks.. and I've had major headaches for about 2 months straight!!!

I just can't stop crying and hurting...

all I wanted was to hear a couple kind words so I could get through my darn day...its ok....

i checked in all morning for a reply myself but had to go to work. just saw your post when i got home. girl if you don't stop running around in circles around yourself for just one moment you will go crazy. you have to take time out for yourself or you won't be able to deal with your overwelming life. start with breathing it may seem silly or uncomfortable but breath long breaths in and long breaths out. go hide in the bathroom to do it. count in 1 2 3 4 out the same way. do it several times, keep writting and keep talking, keep trying. you are the only one that can find yourself peace.

32 years

32years said...
i checked in all morning for a reply myself but had to go to work. just saw your post when i got home. girl if you don't stop running around in circles around yourself for just one moment you will go crazy. you have to take time out for yourself or you won't be able to deal with your overwelming life. start with breathing it may seem silly or uncomfortable but breath long breaths in and long breaths out. go hide in the bathroom to do it. count in 1 2 3 4 out the same way. do it several times, keep writting and keep talking, keep trying. you are the only one that can find yourself peace.

32 years

I thank you..I will try that... I went through this day ok... but my body hurt so bad... but I was talking with my boyfriend not long ago and he was trying to reassure me...its all gonna work out one day...he got me to laugh... I feel a little better... but I still have loads of work to do

Coming from the prespective of an over controlliing parent, and having been raised in a dysfuctional family, I can understand both sides. I have been in your shoes as a teenager, and have lived some of it with my chidren. As kim said, this is a very tough time in your life.. Sometimes My best efforts to give advice or help my children ( like I think I need to do things) end up in turmoil, frustration and anger ( and then usually, depression). They are all grown and live out on their on now. Recently my youngest daughter, 23, and I have gone through situations that I would never have dreamed of happening. I have tried to help, but I cannot stop myself from trying to interfere with her life. So I have stopped calling. I feel so much better. I'm sure she does too I figure the two of us will get a chance to be together soon and I will guard my tounge, and try to remember that she has to live her own live, and I have a life of my own to live.

I guess I taught my daughter well. She cuts me off when I become overbearning and controlling. During these times, I seem to forget the things I have learned to take care of myserlf, my emotions, health, ect.. I guesss it's temporary insanity. Or at least I claim it. LOL. I'm still a work in progress and I make mistakes. Not working things out with my daughter would be a big mistake. I hope you can reslove things with your parents. I don't know if that is possible, but I hope it is.

IT sounds like your bf's mother is doing exactly what I have done. And she is really keeping you upset. Maybe she thinks she is acting out of love, I don't know. Just remember, you have choices as to how you re-act.

I have learned this if I have every learned anything in 54 years. YOU must take care of yourself!! If you do not know how, you will have to learn to do that to survive.


I hope you will take some of the others' advice and try to find someone to talk to that can be objective, maybe a therapist. I wish I had done that earlier in my life. You sound like a smart girl, frustrated at some cirmcumstances, but the fact that you have sought out this board for support and help says a lot about you!! You're working on yourself, looking for answers and options instead of accepting things the way they are. Just remember that things do not change overnight.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow and keep coming back.

Be Well,

Judy
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judyinky said...
Coming from the prespective of an over controlliing parent, and having been raised in a dysfuctional family, I can understand both sides. I have been in your shoes as a teenager, and have lived some of it with my chidren. As kim said, this is a very tough time in your life.. Sometimes My best efforts to give advice or help my children ( like I think I need to do things) end up in turmoil, frustration and anger ( and then usually, depression). They are all grown and live out on their on now. Recently my youngest daughter, 23, and I have gone through situations that I would never have dreamed of happening. I have tried to help, but I cannot stop myself from trying to interfere with her life. So I have stopped calling. I feel so much better. I'm sure she does too I figure the two of us will get a chance to be together soon and I will guard my tounge, and try to remember that she has to live her own live, and I have a life of my own to live.

I guess I taught my daughter well. She cuts me off when I become overbearning and controlling. During these times, I seem to forget the things I have learned to take care of myserlf, my emotions, health, ect.. I guesss it's temporary insanity. Or at least I claim it. LOL. I'm still a work in progress and I make mistakes. Not working things out with my daughter would be a big mistake. I hope you can reslove things with your parents. I don't know if that is possible, but I hope it is.

IT sounds like your bf's mother is doing exactly what I have done. And she is really keeping you upset. Maybe she thinks she is acting out of love, I don't know. Just remember, you have choices as to how you re-act.

I have learned this if I have every learned anything in 54 years. YOU must take care of yourself!! If you do not know how, you will have to learn to do that to survive.


I hope you will take some of the others' advice and try to find someone to talk to that can be objective, maybe a therapist. I wish I had done that earlier in my life. You sound like a smart girl, frustrated at some cirmcumstances, but the fact that you have sought out this board for support and help says a lot about you!! You're working on yourself, looking for answers and options instead of accepting things the way they are. Just remember that things do not change overnight.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow and keep coming back.

Be Well,

Judy
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Thank you for your kind words...I feel so much better than yesterday...but I know its still hangin ova my head....  But I talked to a couple people yesterday...And they got me through the day...its so crazy..I use to be the one who would give advice...and I was the one...who was just... the all-american...at muh school...everyone came to me for everything..I was in clubs..organizations..everyone loved me.. and as soon as I came out I guess it all went downhill..but my friends reassured it will all get better in due time! Thank you again!