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Posted 10/19/2007 11:09 AM (GMT 0)
I am starting a new thread so it is easier to read and reply too since the other was getting pretty long.



Shy
Posted 10/20/2007 10:40 AM (GMT 0)
Hello Shy,

Ive recently been put on Lexapro i have been on Zoloft for at least 3yrs.

I was told to take 50mg of the Zoloft from 100mg & 10mg of the Lexapro.

 

Since ive started its been 2wks now & ive been getting horrible migraines. I can only assume its from the new med, ive changed nothing else.

 

What was the reason yu went off the Lexapro if yu dont mind me asking? And how did yu get off of all those meds?

 

Do yu feel any sort of anxiety at all now?

 

Since, then ive stopped the Lexapro the migraines are gone except every once in a long while, ive always suffered from migraines, just not every day for 2wks, on a new med.

 

Im just taking the 100mg of Zoloft now & like yu have been on many anti depressants, Wellbuturin,Prozac,Paxil,Buspar,Celexa,Xanax,

Klonopin,& currently on Valium thats one that i just keep going up on every yr.

 

Im on 40mg of valium & are begining to feel those tingly funny in the chest feelings, pounding heart bts.fatigue yu know the usual anxiety stuff.

 

Thank yu for reading this.

 

Maddie

Posted 10/20/2007 11:00 PM (GMT 0)

Hello Jane,

I thought I would put a little color in your day J

How are things going today? I hope you are having an ok day and I hope you keep posting here as well as email away. I am here for you.

You are in everyone’s prayers and if I could, I would take a plane and fly down as I have never been in your beautiful country.

Please lean on us and let us take your hand as you make your journey through this battle. You are a winner, I can feel it in my heart. Luvs ya and stay brave.

Kitt
Posted 10/21/2007 1:25 PM (GMT 0)
Jane
I am just checking on you to see how you are doing?



Maddy
I started a new thread for you so that your get the replies that you need.


Shy
Posted 10/21/2007 9:45 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Jane,

I am guessing you are just not in a good place right now and posting is to hard so you just read and know that everyone here is praying for you in their own way.

It has been a cool and dreary weekend in Minnesota............hope your weather is  sunny and you are able to be outside some.  I wish I could see that beautiful view of the opera house.

Stay brave and never give up, you will be out of there and back home soon .  I know this is really hard for you and there are times when you just don't think you can keep going but sweetie, we are here sending lots of love. So hang on tight and gentle hugs are coming your way.

Luvs ya

Kitt

Posted 10/22/2007 9:46 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Jane,

I hope the treatment is going well. I know it is hard for you at the moment and that you dont always want to talk to people but I want you to know that we are all behind you here and we are sending our thoughts and prayers to you. I know you can get through this... you have a tremendous strength of character and determination. we will all be here for you when you get back.

Big Hugs from Britain

Darren

Posted 10/22/2007 10:01 AM (GMT 0)
You are all so wonderful and yes Kitt i am not in a good place at all .
This weekend i stayed in the hospital i didn`t think i could cope with going out again but we don` t have treatments on the weekend and there was only a couple who didn`t go out .Eversince i was admitted i have been having so much trouble sleeping at the most only a couple of hours a night if it`s a good night .and today i have been awake since 2:15am i`m so exhausted and this morning the thought of going through the treatment again was a bit too much .The fellow administering my treatment told me i had to see my oncologist after treatment this morning as even then they new i was having a lot of problems with it ( but i just couldn`t tell him why )I was in such a state after it this morning one of the nurses took me to a different room where we could talk in private .After seeing her i saw the oncologist and was better able to explain to him all my problems which i couldn`t before .he just hugged me for about ten minutes at least he understands why i`m reacting as i am . He will arrange for some help for me and tomorrow when i go for my treatment he will come in and help me ( with reguards to them covering my face )which is really freaking me out each time .( i know it`s done to protect my face and eyes but i just can`t take it .

.Restless
Posted 10/22/2007 10:11 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Jane,

Thanks for taking the time and effort to check in with us... I know its hard for you. Im so glad to hear that the oncologist is being so supportive of you. Hopefully, he can make this a bit more bearable for you. Can they give you meds to get you to sleep? I think part of the problem is the fact that you are exhausted! Its certainly not helping at any rate.

More hugs from Britain!

Darren

Posted 10/22/2007 12:12 PM (GMT 0)
Darren they have been giving me sleeping medication and even doubled it but i only still get a couple of hours sleep thats why i`m so exhausted all the time
Restless
Posted 10/22/2007 2:46 PM (GMT 0)
Is ther another med that they can try? I know they have to be careful so that the meds dont interfere with the treatment but there must be something else they can try surely? What are they giving you at the moment?

Posted 10/24/2007 6:46 AM (GMT 0)
sorry but i just have not been so good .i`m so exhausted atm this evening i couldnt even climb the stairs to my room but am now getting a lot more help ,not only with coping with my cancer treatment but now with the mental problems .Today i saw a new psychologist and she is arranging for a full assessment to be done and the correct medication to be given so hopefully i may feel a bit better before i go home.they are also taking inot consideration as to the help i will recieve when i return home.
my treatment didn`t improve much today nor did my reaction to it but i`m hoping tomorrow some of the new coping stratergories will help .
Restless
Posted 10/25/2007 12:27 PM (GMT 0)
Oh Restless
First it is not good news that you are so tired.I hope that does not continue..you won't be in treatment forever and soon it will be over and you will be able to go home.

I am so glad that you are finally getting the proper help!!!
Worry about getting through each day right now,don't worry about home yet ok?
You can only take it one day at a time right now.

If you can't stop worrying about home and help,tell your psychologist,see if they can do some research on getting you help when you get home. I am sure there is some type of program that can send someone to your house at least once a week?

((((((((hugs))))))))))))

Shy
Posted 10/26/2007 12:04 PM (GMT 0)
Hi all today has been a really tough day .It would just be so easy for me to give up now .iI just feel as though i have nothing more left to give .
After my treatment was over i met again with the psychologist ( the new one ) it`s just so draining i didn`t want tp stay in the hospital when i got back so went for a walk ,But soon found i couldn`t go very far i was heading to a small park right on the edge of the harbour where the ferry comes across but never made it there .
Icame back here and just layed on my bed all day doing a bit too much thinking .i did listen to the relaxation dvds whiched helped a bit .
Tonight when hubby rang i told him that i wasn`t going to come home after my treatment had finished he wasn`t very impressed but i know inside i need to do this for me ,not for my family or him but for me otherwise i know i will not keep going on .
The psychologist is trying to arrange for a psych consult before my treatment finished but not sure if that will happen .
This place is becomming really sad one of the fellows who comes over to the same hospital for treatment as me was told yesterday he is now terminal it`s so sad to see he really is a lovely man just in his early sixties but seemed like he was full of life but the brain tumor is growing too fast now .Why does life have to be so cruel to some and yet you see murderers get away all the time like really sucks big time the sooner i`m out of here the better .



Darren thank you so much for your well wishes card i recieved it today it was lovely you are so sweet .
Thanks Restless
Posted 10/26/2007 2:34 PM (GMT 0)
Restless
I agree with you,cancer is a very mean disease and it does not care who it attacks.
But you are a survivor,and I know you are going to make it through this.

Where are you going after your treatment?



Shy
Posted 10/26/2007 3:02 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Restless,

Thank you for checking in with us again today. I understand that this must be so hard for you and I agree with Shy, that cancer is a vicous disease and is uncaring about who it touches and effects. How much longer do you have left on your treatment? I know you have the strength to carry on, just dig deep.

Big British Hugs

Darren

P.S Your welcome for your card, I cant believe how long its taken though!

Posted 10/27/2007 10:55 AM (GMT 0)
Shy i really don`t know at this stage where i will be .My old psychologist wants me in a mental institution for a while but i am not going to go there that would be then end .
The oncology psychologist is trying to arrange a psych consult before i leave this place where i`m staying atm but that ends on friday after my last treatment i can only stay here while i recieve treatment for cancer .She mentioned a couple of other places but not being from down here i do not know them at all .Im getting very anxious about it all i think just the not knowing where i`m going to be in advance has me on edge .

Today i really don`t know how i`m feeling i know i`m tired and my face is reacting to the radiation it`s really bothering me atm .I have a bad head but i thought that that would be expected from all this .Tonight i have the room to myself as everyone has gone home for the weekend so sitting up late isn`t going to bother anyone else .It does make it hard when i`m just so awake but can`t do anything about it as i o not want to turn my light on to read so i just sit with ear plugs in watching DVD`S for hours through the night .Last night i watched the whole series of Pride and Prejudice it went for a few hours then i was able to sleep for a couple more hours .
I have done so much thinking since i have been in here not sure if it is for the better or not i have come up with so many doubts about a few decisions i have made and now wondering if i have made t hem for the wrong decision .
Well i must go i just seem to be rambling on here willl drop in again soon .
Restless
Posted 10/27/2007 11:05 AM (GMT 0)
Hey Darren you think that your mail was slow in getting to me it took 9days for mail to come from one side of our state to the other side last week and it was even sent express post .

I have only five more treatments to get through friday this week i hope is the last welll thats what the dr had planned so i`m hoping that thats what still stands .
Sometime ago there was an advertisement for cancer on our television stating that cancer is only a word it can be beaten but believe me once you have been on the other side of the fence it certainly is just a word it`s a definate sentance the only difference i can see is that we all serve a sentance some a lot longer than others .some of those sentances are long some short some get through and many wont .
One thing i have learn`t is that EVERYONE fights their OWN BATTLE in this life whether it be cancer,abuse or no matter what we are all there fighting together but i know my fight has been made a whole lot easier with all of you guys and gals there fighting with me and i will never forget the friendship you all have offered to a complete stranger . MY THOUGHTS ARE WE ARE ALL ONE FAMILY AND BOY WHAT A GREAT FAMILY TO BELONG :THANKYOU FOR ALL BEING THERE FOR ME ::: HUGS
Restless
Posted 10/27/2007 11:43 AM (GMT 0)
Restless
This site has helped me survive too,and I owe my life to it I think.
You have been there for so many here and in your home that it is time someone tries to be there for you.

Whatever your decisions are with what you are going to do after your treatment,make sure the decision is just for you. Your family will have to accept it. You know what is right and you know what your heart feels.
The most important thing for you is that you get better both physically and mentally.


(((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Shy
Posted 10/29/2007 1:09 AM (GMT 0)

Hello Jane,

I am here and I have not left you.  There are messages elsewhere for you too.

Please let me know what your plans are and know that I will listen and not judge you ever.  You are so brave and yet only you know what it has really been like to go through what your going through.

I hope all my sillly cards came through to you.  I picture you looking out at the opera house and wish I could be with you to hold your hand.

I know it would help so much to have a warm hand to hold.  Whenever I am a patient I will hold onto whoever is willing to let me hold their hand.  I need to feel connected so take advantage of whoever is there to help comfort you.

I hope you get your psych consult in before Friday.  I so agree that cancer is a private battle. You are a true warrior in this battle and I am proud of you.  I hope you keep battling.

Every day that you  challenge this cancer and survive is a victory for you.

Love you my friend

Kitt

Posted 10/31/2007 11:48 AM (GMT 0)
Restless
Just checking in to see how you are doing my friend



Shy
Posted 10/31/2007 4:34 PM (GMT 0)

I too am curious as to how you are getting on Jane. I hope everything is OK

Darren

Posted 11/1/2007 11:21 AM (GMT 0)
I am bumping this up so Restless will see it right away.


I hope you can check in with us soon!


Shy
Posted 11/2/2007 12:27 AM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone i have tried to respond but have been unable to log in until today just something i must of been doing wrong i have no idea .
Ok the news is i have just finished my current cancer treatment and i`m so pleased to say that believe me and after all those teary hugs and good bys from all those wonderful people who have been there for me over the past month i`m feeling worse than i ever have done in such a long time .
The reason why is i have been admitted to a " clinic " for the next three weeks for treatment for all the other crap (no other word that i could even think of calling it all ) in my life.
I actually arrived here yesterday and boy it`s not a good feeling at all to start with i`m feeling so unsafe here ,frightened,alone and everso sad .i could easily run out the door but i know i need this and have to stick with it if i`m ever going to live a " normal " life .
Last night i found out that im on hte floor with all those who are drug/alcohol abusers and not on the floor for those with depression as what i came in her for but this is the onle bed available so it was here or just go home ,hence why i`m frightened .
After seeing the psycharitirist last night he told me i have to attend group sessions this will me so hard for me but he said it`s what i need to overcome .and he is coming in on saturday again to see me .
They have me back on anti depressants as i knew they would this one is Avanza is supposed to help me sleep but last night i was awake by two so it didn`t help at all the night before i had the best sleep in the past four weeks that i have ever had only to wake at four after sufferring a major bleed from my nose and finding myself covered in blood was a great shock they then told me to expect a lot more of them it was a result from the radiation .
Well i had better go for now i want to find the library there is one here somewhere and reading is the only thing that has kept me going these past few weeks so heres hoping .
SUPER HUGS TO ALL .
Jane
Posted 11/2/2007 2:35 AM (GMT 0)

Dear Jane,

Hello dear friend.  So glad to see you posting.  I am sure you are frightened as you just came from a completely differnt type of setting. You have the right to feel down but please try to do the best you can in group therapy.

I am assuming you will have your group sessions with people in the derpession unit not with the people on the floor where your housed for now.

Also will you get to move off that ward when a room opens up in the proper unit?

I am sure waking to a nose bleed was a scare.  Another stress to overcome, but look at you sweetie, you made it through your treatments.  You will make it through this time too.

Wish I could be there to give you a hug.

Take care and keep posting, it helps you stay grounded to your friends here.

(((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))

In friendship

Kitt

Posted 11/2/2007 11:23 AM (GMT 0)
Restless

I too am very glad to see you checking in. You are done with your treatment!! yeah!!!
I know that the clinic is scary,but you are on step 3 of healing (one was telling someone you needed help,2 was taking meds,and now 3 is getting help)

Please stay strong,you deserve to be happy and deserve to wake up everyday excited about what the day brings.


((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))

Shy
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