Star,
I am so very sorry for your loss. I know she was more than just a cousin to you. She was your best friend/sister and your substitute mother. So, you've lost a big part of your family. But please know that she is no longer in pain. I know that's only a little comfort for the pain you're feeling right now here on earth, as I'm sure her husband is also.
Please continue with your therapy and please stay with your family here at HealingWell. We love and care about you Star, so please stay in touch with us and let us know how you are doing. We want to be here for you. I know you will have your therapist, but we are your support group family. You can email most of us if you need to by just clicking on our names.
Love and Prayers,
Carla