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Posted 12/27/2007 5:36 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers,

Just wondering how you are doing.  I am hoping you are on your way back home.  Please post when you are settled and let us know how you are doing.

Gillian,

I hope that you had a nice holiday and that your son is doing well, if you get a chance let me know.

Luv and hugs,

Karen

Posted 12/27/2007 11:51 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

Sorry i havent posted the last couple off days, i have to confess i did log in but didnt post! tut tut!. It has just been non stop but we did have a nice time, the boys got all they wanted, (thank god), and we had a quiet day at my mum and dads house. We were are the boys dads house today for dinner and it was very successful, a lovely meal and 1 or 2 wines!! lol,. So we are home now and the boys are tucked up in bed, i just hope the have a long lie in the morning.
I hope you had a good time with your family and the new baby, and the travelling went well.

Hi Embers,

i was wondering if you went to that family gathering. Whatever you did i hope you and your hubby had a lovely time anyway, and just think christmas over and a step closer to going home. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing.

Gillian x
Posted 12/28/2007 10:13 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Ladies,

Well trying to get back to normal, what with all the boys toys everything is all over the place.

We have been having horrible weather here heavy rain and high winds, i hate the wind.

I hope both of you are feeling ok, havent heard from you Embers i hope everything is good with you. Let us know if you got back home when you get a min! Karen how have you been over the holidays? I look forward to hearing from you both. Gillian x
Posted 12/28/2007 11:21 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Gillian,

I don't like the wind either, it makes me nervous for some reason. I always get king of jumpy.

I had a wonderful holiday. I just got married on the 21st so that made Christmas even more special. We went to son and daughter in law's for the holiday and watched the grandkids open gifts. It was a blast, they were so excited. We also had a new grandson on the 17th so that was extra special. And the sun come out that day. We have had a lot of rain, snow and clouds lately.

I am hoping that Embers is just in the process of moving and that we will hear from her soon. She is really nice, isn't she. I enjoy reading her posts as well as yours.

I will close here, will read some more. Will write more later.

Hugs,

karen
Posted 1/1/2008 5:30 AM (GMT 0)
Hey you two!!

Here I am - back home!!! Sorry I have not dropped by - there was soooo much going on and such a long time getting back, and then internet being wonky. Anyway, hubby and I have agreed never again so far as we can help it will we fly with American Airlines. It was a very unpleasant trip both ways. If you can fly West Jet - they, on the other hand, have really nice staff and less squishy seating.

It is very good to 'see' you guys here again. What is your weather like? We came back to SNOW and a proper cold Canadian winter, so I am feeling much better. lol! No more like a duck out of water...or should I say a penguin out of ice. haha.

The house is worse than we remembered. When we opened the door the smell of mold came wafting out. The bathroom is sickening with the smell and I have not showered in days because of it! I mean, the mold is so bad, and I am affected quite noticeably by it. Was going to shower tonight but then the water from the dishes backed up and came through the pipes back up into the bathtub carrying grime up with it. Gross! Needless to say, we gave the landlords notice tonight!!! And we are applying to get help from our disability office to spend the month in a hotel while we find some place healthy and decent to rent instead. So this has kind of taken some of the kindness out of the coming home experience - but we are both trying to keep telling ourselves and each other that we are moving forward. I have a lot of resentment toward h re. how we came to rent this place as well as finances in general, and I am recognizing that forgiveness is going to take time, but I'm working on it.

So been enduring this place a couple days, but hopefully will be in a hotel by the end of the week. That is both a relief and like a brick in the stomach as I'm not looking forward to living in a hotel again for a month. Depressing, depressing and depressing. But will try to make the best of it. I guess I'll probably be having more nature walks to post about if that's the case! lol!!

Made it through Christmas. I actually was quite sick the night before the big hoopla so coudn't go. H went without me. Glad to hear Christmas went well for you both.

It is good to be back here - you help me remember to look on the bright side of things and I really need to do that right now. yeah So the bright side is that we are home safely, and that we have options and still have the hope of a better home to come. When I come back to post about the great home we have found, and, if after a month, I am still posting about the great home we are living in, then you will have witnessed a miracle and you can all say Hallelujah and Amen okay? haha. Seriously, I am hoping for a miracle - for a really great place to turn up. These crappy rentals are really something h and I are mroe than ready to leave behind. It's very hard on our marriage and on our physical and emotional and mental and uh spiritual healht to keep moving like this!! Oh well, here's a new years toast to a brighter future and good days ahead for all of us! Cheers!!! yeah

Hope you both are doing okay and enjoying new years with those you love. May blessings surround you and your families and all the wonderful people here at healingwell throughout this coming year and beyond.

love, Embers

Post Edited (manyembers) : 12/31/2007 10:35:51 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 1/1/2008 3:11 PM (GMT 0)
yeah  Hey Embers,

It is great to have you back.  We missed that upbeat attitude of yours.  I hope that you find a place soon.  One you can be happy in with no mold.  I know that can make one very sick and with you being allergic to it that has to be extra hard.

It is great to see your writing, I want to say hear your voice, but that isn't right is it. 

I had a nice Christmas and New Years Eve.  Everything was fun.  I didn't go anywhere.  I checked in with the forum every so often in case somebody was having a hard time.  But since I am on daylights savings time, I was probably the first to close down. 

We have had pretty good weather.  It is suppose to be warming up.  I can't believe it is suppose to be in the 40's later in the week.  I think that is what they said.  I know that this is far from over, but I will take any break that I can get.  I still haven't gone skiing but have been invited to go snow shoeing.  Have you ever done that?  I guess that some people like it and some don't.  I am a little afraid with the fibro and my muscles.  But am curious to try.

I will end here, I will write more later.

Luv and hugs,

Karen

Posted 1/2/2008 11:13 AM (GMT 0)
Embers,

Glad to hear from you again, i'm glad you got home and i hope you get a decent place to live soon.

I had a good christmas and a quiet new year, everything went well. Sorry to hear you were not feeling to good at christmas but i'm glad your feeling ok now.

Keep us posted on the hotel front and you take care, Gillian x
Posted 1/2/2008 5:20 PM (GMT 0)
Good morning you guys,

Hope that you both are having a wonderful day. It is really cold here this morning, but the sun is out. Hoping to go for a walk later. Got to get rid of some of this weight. The holidays contribute to so much, and I can never seem to lose it.

I hope that you are both doing well and I hope to hear from you soon.

Take care, keep in touch. I look forward to reading your posts every day.

hugs,

Karen
Posted 1/3/2008 1:43 AM (GMT 0)
Hi again!

Good to hear from you two. Gill - glad your Christmas was good and all went well. That's really great.

Karen, yes walking is good - I usually find actually getting myself out the door to do it, is harder than doing the walk itself. lol. I have never gone snow shoeing...may have done that at school once as a kid - but not gone on a real outing as an adult. Must be a hoot!

We had to check into a hotel last night. Now the pipes at that house are messed up and the water from the sink backed up into the tub, and the toilet overflowed. It was more than I could bear, and we were both nervous about using the toilet after that. It had almost overflowed 3 times before that. We are moving out! Our landlords are out of town till the 6th so we gave them notice, but don't know how all the details for that will go. Hopefully they will be understanding. Hopefully we can get some financial backing to stay here until we can get into a new place.

The hotel room is really nice. The beds are comfy and it's quiet. I made us some supper in the slow cooker, so it's working well for the time being. Our money is low due to the trip, but things will work out one way or another.

We are both soooo tired. This has been quite a long haul. Hopefully soon we'll really be home somewhere that we can call home.

Hope you both enjoyed some sunshine today and are having a nice evening. I was out today a couple times and it is bright and the snow was melting some. We don't get a ton of snow here but enough to keep the ground covered and looking pretty white.

ttfn, Embers :-) :-)
Posted 1/3/2008 2:21 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers,

Have you noticed that the days are getting longer.  I am so waiting for the days to get warmer.  They are supposed to be warmer by the weekend.  I truly hope to get out and walking.  I have never been snowshoeing before so I don't even know if I can do it.  Cross country skiing sounds better to me.  But I will take what I can get. 

John plans to go ice fishing here soon.  I wish I was up to going but I have trouble sitting for such a long time.  If it is nice enough to fish outside of the shantee, I can make it because I can get up and move around.  But I will eat the fish all day long if I can.  I like perch.  Also bluegill.  The smaller fish.  But I wont complain about walleye.  They are good also.  Do you like fish?

I am so glad that you are someplace comfortable.  That is so important.  Maybe  this will be your oppertunity to find a nice place.  I hope that it works out for you.  I am glad that you got help to get out of the other place.  It sounds like something was full and needed to be pumped out or else something is plugged up.  I bet you couldn't wait to get out of there. 

I hope you have a nice relaxing evening and wake up to a lovely day.

hugs

Karen

Posted 1/3/2008 7:50 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Karen,

You sound like you are a real go getter!! I think ice fishing would be an interesting experience. If you do or don't go, either way, just make sure that man of yours brings you some fish for supper. tongue Yes, I like fish. I havn't tried many kinds, and only had it right from the lake - 'hand caught' a few times. It tastes soooo much better than the frozen stuff at the super market, huh! I like cod and halibut a lot.

Being that I've just changed our location from the south to the north - I don't actually notice days getting longer - actually here there is about 30 minutes more sunlight probably than back in Tennessee.

Well Karen and Gill, I have very good news!!! We rented a place tonight!! It is a condo apartment - which is what we decided would work best for us. After four moldy houses in just over a year, we figure condos are usually very well taken care of, and also easier maintenance. So we called and we looked at it and it is very pretty and good and spacious for the size it is. It also comes with five appliances and a double sink so it's just what I need to keep my sanity in tact. haha! Seriously though, I don't think I could face not having a dishwasher again - not at this point anyway. So we are both very happy about it. We signed the lease tonight and can move in tomorrow! Yay!! It feels like home, and we are hopeful that truly we will get some rest now after these past several years of so many moves and bad rentals etc.

Well, it's late here, so I will keep this short and sweet as they say. Hope you are resting well and wishing you a nice day tomorrow/today.

love, Embers
Posted 1/4/2008 4:43 AM (GMT 0)
Hi you guys,

I hope that you both had a wonderful day.  I went shopping for groceries and other odds and ends that we were running out of.  It was cold and windy, but not too bad now, I think that it is warming up.

Hopefully in this warmer weather I will be able to get out for a walk.  I am starting to get cabin fever I guess.  It has been a while since I have gotten  out and achieved some calorie burning exercise. 

I use to be more of a go getter.  Use to hunt and fish.  I split and stacked wood.  I use to work hard.  I use to either ski or walk daily.  Now is so different.  I think about all of the things I want to do, but can't always do them.  Once in a while I have the opportunity and the energy at the same time.  That is when I really consider myself lucky.

I am glad that you have found a new place Embers.  I really hope that you will like it.  It sounds like you are going to be really happy.  I think that is just wonderful, you deserve it.

Have you been for any walks?  You probably haven't had the time.

I wish for you both a wonderful relaxing evening.  Talk to you again soon.

hugs,

Karen

Posted 1/4/2008 10:38 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Ladies,

All is quiet here, though ive been checking in on and off all day.

We got the snow as predicted but not alot, actually its been raining all day and the snow has disappeared!!!

I hope you both are feeling ok, and i'm so glad you found a place to live Embers, a new year and a new start!

Well i'm going to bed now it's just after half 10, getting sleepy now, goodnight you guys,Gillian x
Posted 1/5/2008 2:54 AM (GMT 0)
Hey guys,

All is pretty good here, except I have been a little tired and achey from the fibromyalgia.  We are suppose to get freezing drizzle and the weather is changing.  I imagine it will get damp by the way I feel.  It is going to warm up though.  Maybe if it warms up enough it wont bother me. 

I hope that you both had a nice relaxing day.  I didn't get dressed.  I stayed in my pajamas all day.  Oh well.

As you can probably see, I am tired.  I will write again soon.

hugs

Karen

Posted 1/5/2008 6:53 AM (GMT 0)
Hi ladies,

Oh boy, I'm pooped! Been moving for 2 days - boxes and things - we signed the lease the same day we saw this place, and slept here last night. Tomorrow morning the movers come and then we'll be all moved in. It is such a great place. Hubby and I both feel like we are truly 'home' for the first time in years! Maybe even for the first time actually!!! It just seems to really fit us. We always wanted to rent a house because we both need quiet - but this place is quiet. It's a condo apartment. And it is so clean. And spacious bedrooms and beautiful balcony. We are so happy!!!

The snow is melting here and it's been warmer. I am still waiting to actually see my first snow fall of the year. It was all on teh ground when we came back last week, but not falling from the sky. I hope the weather warms up for you Karen. I know I have also had times where the damp weather made me ache and I sure hate that feeling! Gill - bummer that the rain made all the snow disappear your way. Snow is so pretty!

No walks for me really since being home - unless you count walking around the parking lot for 15 minutes while I waited for hubby to finish his errand. I was bored and figured I coudl use the exercise. lol!

Hope you are both getting some good rest and that there are good and kind moments sparkling in your days. Karen - I know the feeling of wanting to do more than I can now - there was a time when I just couldn't dance and dance had been such a huge part of who I was. It wasn't a phsyical thing - but an emotional/spiritual wound. I grieved for it so badly. But then I began listening to the wind in the trees and thinking about how they sway and I decided that they were dancing for me!!! You are the same way as I am I think - you find the beauty that is in you all around you - even if you can't ski now - your heart is still there - and you're still out there in spirit! The person you were pre-fibro is still there - as true and wonderful as ever. I know when my health went screwy - I felt like I lost me - but somehow I found other ways to still connect with life. So here's to celebrating you! Thanks for being a ray of light to me all through that recent hard stretch I was in - for writing here every day and helping me to feel less alone. That meant so much to me. I'm glad you are here - and now we have Gill too. So here we are reaching for the light through the cloudy hours and celebrating the good sunny moments too!

You guys have a great week-end. I'll be moving and then I guess, being a couch potato as they say!

Embers
Posted 1/5/2008 6:58 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Embers,

I am so happy for you.  It sounds like you have a fun project of moving into your new condo.  I bet you are just thrilled.  Do you have any ideas about how you are going to set up and decorate?  I bet you have a lot of different ways you want to put the furniture and what not.  Was it furnished?  Or did you have furniture that you had to move?  Either way I bet it is exciting.

Gillian, we haven't heard a lot from you.  I hope that means that you are just busy.  I wondered if everything was okay?  How are the boys?  I would love to know more about where you are from. 

I am happy that I could be there for you Embers.  You made it easy with your interesting conversations.  We are all very complex type people I think.  People that just want to live their lives though.  It just seems that depression can get in the way.  Situations get hard and we need a little guidance.  Plus getting your mind off of everything helps.  Being able to step back, look at things objectively.  I think in your situation Embers, that you saw everything for what it was and knew that it would take time for a change.  I am glad that you had your change, and it was a good one.  I had really thought about you a lot and was praying for you.  I knew that things would work out.  It was just a matter of having patience and keeping yourself sane.  And you made it.  I will be so happy when you get yourself settled in and are able to enjoy your life to the fullest.

I hope that you guys have a wonderful stressfree, painfree and happy day.

hugs,

Karen

Posted 1/7/2008 4:28 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Karen. We don't have much furniture due to giving all away when we moved west a year or two ago. But the place is so cute it doesn't really matter. We do have very good beds and a nice kitchen table and little by little we can make this place 'home.' Personlize and furnish it more so that will be a nice thing I expect.

My muscles are so aching. I am quite thorough when I clean, and this place wasn't cleaned properly so been cleaning and unpacking and so tired. It is usually very quiet here, but wouldn't you just know that after exhausting myself and going to nap, the neighbor had some kind of party for hours and there were too many bumps and thuds to sleep. I rested some, and rested more tonight though so that's a start.

I'm glad the trip is over and glad we are home. I need to work on getting more patience with the hubby. I go from 0 to 9ish on the richter scale of frustration quite easily these days. H is changing a lot but our marriage needs to really get some healing after all this upheaval and the trip being like it was at the end. But we are both looking forward and tryign hard to be gentle with each other. Exhaustion makes the stress levels go high but the fact that we are actually resting - as in, knowing we are home - that is bringing some good calm to us.

I'm so tired. So will sign off now. Hope you and Gill are doing okay. Wishing you a pain free night/day and rays of sunshine meeting ya both along the way.

Embers
Posted 1/7/2008 10:12 AM (GMT 0)
Hi,

I'm here and i'm good, just been busy and out and about.

Karen how are you feeling today? Are you still having pain as much? I just love pyjama days, i sometimes do that with the boys on sundays.

Embers glad to hear your nearly done unpacking, i hope your neighbours are not the partying kind, maybe it was just a new years party!!

Well ladies here we go again i'm joining a slimming club tomorrow!! Hope to lose some weight before i go into hospital, i still have no date for my op, i will have to call the hospital to check on things, i would have thought my date would have been through by now.

Nothing else new here i will probably be back again later today,

Gillian x
Posted 1/7/2008 4:19 PM (GMT 0)
good morning ladies,

It was great to hear from you again Embers.  I hope that your neighbors don't party all of the time.  I have ones that did, but they have gotten better.  We would have to turn our television up  loud just so we could hear it.  And they are across the street.  It gets bad in the summer. 

I am glad you and your husband are getting back to being comfortable again.  It sounds like things are going to be okay.

We are having another foggie and icy day.  I hate this kind of weather.  It is so damp.  I guess one more day of this.  Then I am not sure what is going to happen, will watch the noon news to find out.  I wish winter was over but I know better than that.

Gillian, I hope that your operation goes well.  I know that this sounds stupid, but with my fibromyalgia I forget so much, but what kind of surgery are you going to have?  I remember you talking about it before, but right now I lost the thought.  So it is easier to ask you again than to try to find it in our posts. 

Do you guys ever go into the chat room?  I have been going in a little, but I am so slow at responding that everything gets all mixed up.  But when I check in there I will look for you both.

I have to get moving, I haven't gotten dressed for days and I think today is the day.  But I have nowhere to go so I probably will stay the way I am.  When I first wrote this paragraph, I said that I haven't gotten dressed for years instead of days.  I wonder what you would of thought of that? 

I have to take care of my dogs, so I will get going.  I hope that you both have the most wonderful day/night filled with pleasantness and relaxation.

Hugs to you both,

Karen

Posted 1/7/2008 5:10 PM (GMT 0)
Ha your funny Karen, imagine in pj's for years, sounds good to me!

I have been in the chatroom but only on the ostomy forum, when you go on after a while it shuts down and we all get booted out!!! don't know why??

My op is an ileostomy reversal and hernia repair, remember i got the bad tear that damaged my bowel during Sean's birth? So hopefully i'll be hearing soon from the hospital.

Hope you both are having a good day,

Gillian x
Posted 1/7/2008 5:33 PM (GMT 0)
Gillian I wish you luck with your surgery.  I hope that everything goes well for you.

You are a special person, I enjoyed chatting with you.  Next time hopefully we can chat longer.  I am not that good at it yet, gotta get more confident.  Thinking of things to say is sometimes hard when you go so fast.

Have a wonderful evening, maybe we can get embers in there sometime.

hugs,

Karen

Posted 1/8/2008 6:13 AM (GMT 0)
Well, I have to say it was sooo nice to come here tonight and see you both and read your posts. yeah I rested up some, but then pushed too long tonight and things went all screwy - trying to find what we need in this area - and trying to figure out the dishwasher - and uh, well... we are getting low on some staples so scrounging together creative food and more cleaning and and ... lol!

Gill, let us know when you go in for your surgery so we can keep you in our prayers if okay. That's cool that you and Karen met in chat. I have not attempted that yet...maybe I should try. Could be fun! All the best to you on your slimmin plans. For me, I just need to get some kind of routine. I'm not overweight, but my belly is too big for my liking. lol!

Karen, I have spent plenty of days in my bathrobe and pj's so you are in good company. haha. yeah tongue

I think Gill was right - it must have been a new years party. It was strange as that was the ONLY time it's been noisy like that here. Go figure it was right at the time I NEEDED my nap! But I am recovering. Rested this afternoon and trying to get to bed earlier. Oh, I love being back home with my soft cushy bed. Yeah! And it really is quiet here - which is AWESOME! So that was just a bump in the road, but better now.

Speaking of bed time, it's past it, so I shall sign off for now.

love and hugs, Embers
Posted 1/8/2008 9:50 AM (GMT 0)
Embers you sound so happy again! it's great to hear. I know what you mean about being back in your own bed, there is nothing better :) You should check when you come online to see if any off us are on chatting, it can be fast going if there is alot of members on, but it's good, i just like going on for short periods at a time, sometimes i don't know what to say and i know Karen felt the same.

I promise i will fill you both in on when i go in for my op!

Well i'll go off now and call in later, Bye,

Gillian x
Posted 1/8/2008 9:03 PM (GMT 0)

Hey you guys,

You both sound so good, I think we all are feeling better.  This is a hard time of the year so I try to give myself slack when I don't feel like doing things.  It just seems empty when the holidays are over. 

I haven't been on the computer much today.  I was happy to see that both of you posted.  Gillian you have to forgive my memory.  I have fibromyalgia and I forget things so quickly. 

I go into the fibro chat mostly, but go into depression too.  I am not very good at it.  Like Gill said, when a few people get in there, it moves fast.  I think too slow, but it can be fun. 

We have had nothing but rain for days now.  I understand that it is suppose to get cold this evening and start snowing again.  Everything looks so dirty since it has been raining.

I have been waiting on a book that I ordered called cognitive therapy/the new mood therapy.  I am anxious to recieve it but it hasn't come yet.  I am also waiting for my new driver's liscense.  It just seems like everything is taking a long time.  Maybe because of the holidays.  In time, I guess.  I am just not good at filling out all the forms and getting these things done.

I guess I will close here, I hope that both of you are haveing a wonderful day/night.  I hope that you both continue to feel good.  Keep in touch.

Gillian, keep us posted on your surgery.

hugs,

Karen

Posted 1/9/2008 4:27 AM (GMT 0)
Hey you two,

Guess what... the dishwasher repairman came today and told the landlord the issues, and it was decided by landlord to buy a new dishwasher. Yay!!! So we will be getting a new one and I am sooo happy because the dishwasher is one of my best buddies. lol!

Gill - yeah, there is something so comforting being in one's own bed. And today I bought a nice feather imitation pillow. Hubby got one about a week ago. And after trying his, I went back today and got one for me. yeah

Karen, you just reminded me I need to fill out forms to get our licenses etc. done with the change of address. Hubby and I counted, and we have moved into actual new homes 13 times in the past 7 and a half years, we have signed five leases we have had to break due to landlord/house issues, and have stayed for significant periods with friends about five times. So how many times have I sent away to have our driver's licenses changed to our present addresses? I don't know. I'm rambling again. But yeah, filling out forms isn't fun and with fibro. fog it can be very hard to do. I havn't been fogged out in quite awhile - maybe it's because the climate here is so much easier on me. It is dry desert with very very low humidity. I used to find the humid or damp days - cold and rainy made me feel so stiff and foggy. So I feel for you with all that rain. Hope you get some good sunshine your way soon!!

That sounds like a good book you ordered. Cognitive behavioural therapy was recommended for my husband's condition, and I realized it was the 'technique' I was applying to myself though I didn't know it had a name. lol. I think more and more there are getting to be some very good books out there to help to demystify some of the mental health issues and how to work with trauma. I am grateful for all the good info. that is available. Hubby found a therapist that would likely be very good for me with my background (childhood trauma resulting in post traumatic stress disorder) - but he's very expensive. I figure God can make a way if it's meant to be, but I am just trying to live in the present moment and enjoy the blessing of being home. I would like to have more resources to work through my 'stuff' but I guess I'll need to wait to see what doors open for that. One thing at a time.

This is a longer post tonight. You see, you guys are keepign me company while I wait for my bathtub to finish soaking in the cleaning solution I doused it with. lol. I have recovered enough to do another big scrub on it. I am trying to get the dirty color that has settled in from previous use out of it, and it seems to be working, so that's nice. I love a shiney bathroom.

Well, you two have a great night and take good care of you. You are both special people!!

ttfn, Embers
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