Hi Getting There,
You are right, you have to stay in the present,(the now), and put the past behind you. You do what you can for now. I am sorry that you had to go to the hospital. I know you were trying so hard. Sometimes it takes some intervention or a change of some sort to be able to start fresh. And that is what you are doing now.
I hope that you will continue to post and let us know how you are doing. I hope that you are feeling better. I am glad that you are looking at the positive side of things. You will be okay. Just keep trying. You are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
Luv and hugs,
Karen