My favorite day of the year?

Hi Moch~
I hope you are right about him but I have to tell you that I dont think he is coming back ever. I keep having thoughts he is moving out of his house, the one we shared, the one that when he does move out I know for sure it will be over. That will mean to me that he truly does love someone else and that he doesn't want or love me anymore. The thought is killing me, today I am so depressed, really depressed and really alone.

The only company I get is the police whom I have had to call on a couple of occasions. Other than that my life is grand! Not really. I got dressed today and was looking at myself in the mirror and thought to my self even at my best I was truly never good enough for him, I dont offer anything he gets now. The only thing I know he will never get from anyone is the love that have for him and the pain I feel because of what happened.

Thanks for the compliment about my posts. I actually started working on a manuscript almost a year ago. Over the several months that have passed, I have not touched it. I think because I am too emotional over the events in my life.

I wish I could wake tomorrow and see that this was a horrible nightmare but that wont happen.