Hi Malfunc,
I too am very worried and would love to hear from you again. Im not sure where in the world you are from but here are a couple of numbers you could ring if you are in the UK for some support:
Samaritans: 08457 90 90 90 (ROI: 1850 60 90 90)
Supportline: 02085 549 004
Lifeline: 0845 345 0707
Please let us know how you are
Darren