Guest, I just wanted to welcome you too. I had a rough time as a teen and had been through alot too. I m glad you can
open up here, I wish this was here when I was in my mid teens. I have a son close to your age, and he only has like maybe one good friend, they are both kinda outsiders, but they have each other so that is good, he has hooked up with that one friend. My daughter the same way, not for lack of wanting friends she desperatley wants them, she just has a hard time she has has issues. My son seems content with one good friend.
There are many here you can email to if you feel the need to be more explicit, about any of us with an email would be glad to to respond, and listen.
You have taken a good first step by opening up here, its a safe place here, we do not judge, we listen, do our best to offer advice.
Do you have a school counsler you can open up to, therapy is good too if thats available to you.
Just throwing out options.
I do find being here is good therapy, keep on posting....