Self-Therapy

Dear ComedyDork,

I don't know how you've progressed since your initial post, but here's something I've picked up that perhaps might help you. I am still struggling, however what I mention below has put one of my 'ghosts' to rest.

In jr. high school I was the popular girl's best friend. I wasn't her equal, but I lived in her shadow. She was in the limelight and the only reason I was included was because she would bring me along. One day she chose the popular crowd at the expense of excluding me. This led me to feel extreme self worthlessness and rejection. I distanced myself from her and eventually whet to high school and 'moved on'. Unfortunately that feeling of inadequateness followed me (or I carried with me) until last year.

In speaking to a cognitive therapist about this she said something to me that allowed me to move on from this self-esteem crippling memory. She said that I should be proud of myself for being stronger then her. What I was perceiving as a situation of weakness was in truth one of strength. I could have done what she did to get noticed, but instead I respected my self by not being someone I wasn't or doing things I didn't morally agree with. As simple as this sounds, it was being taught how to perceive my old negative (and haunting) experiences more positively and reflect on how I survived through them and how I was the 'better person' for the way I handled my situation back in Jr. High.

I hope this makes sense and helps you to feel more free of your past.

Sincerely,

Traveler2008

Hey there, I am a cryer  to when I am anxious or feeling down.  I call a dear friend and she helps me put things back in perspective. She will tell me, not to cry but get mad and stop whatever stinkin thinkin is going  on.

Perhaps it is time for you to see your PCP.  You could use a good check up to make sure you are not having any medical problems.

Keep talking to us.

Hugs
Kitt