What most of my days are like

  Wake up in the morning get my son ready for school and go back to bed. I feel tired and in a fog. I have headaches and just feel empty. I feel like every movement I make is like in slow motion like I am floating. I just catch myself staring at things and just feeling numb. I feel lifeless and can't seem to do the simplest of tasks. I do seem to get on the computer but to me I feel like that is all I can do b/c that doesn't involve moving around, but while on the computer I have about 1000 emails but it overwhelms me to even try to start deleting them. I feel lonely even though I have a loving husband and son. I feel frustrated b/c I want to be happy and be able to do things. I used to work at home but now I just can't seem to do it. I sell Ebay but can't seem to be motivated to do what needs to be done. I just want to scream and have everything negative come out in that scream so I can go on with my life again. I think about all the people who really have severe problems and they don't have a way out like one's with cancer and are dying. I say to myself I have nothing to complain about I have a good life and my family is healthy. Then I say WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME SNAP OUT OF IT!!  Then I go back to being the same even though I want to so badly break out of this craziness. I am so so tired of going on different meds to try to help me and liven me up. I am on them a few months and then boom I start feeling awful again. WHAT'S UP WITH THAT? I am on one called Effexor XR right now and I might as well be on nothing as you can see from the post. At first they seemed to work and then I was tired all the time so I increased them that didn't do anything. Now I want to get off them and try something else but the side effects are terrible and I am scared to try. The brain Zaps people describe are the worse and I don't want to be anymore down then I am now. I know I need meds b/c when I try to get off I go right downhill again. Fall and Winter are the worse b/c I have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). Thank you for reading I just needed to vent and I know you all know what I am going thru. Any hints on what you do to lift yourself up when you just feel like doing nothing?

Sometimes when I feel like doing nothing, I allow myself to do nothing. It seems easier that way. Then when I am done doing nothing, I have to play catch up. But I think that sometimes we just need to allow ourselves to be depressed for a while. Not for a long time, but enough to stop feeling guilty for not feeling good.

I think that walks are good, exercising and eating right. Carbohydrates can depress us. Along with alcoholic beverages, which are full of carbs. I think that walking is one of the best things that you can do when you are depressed. I also meditate and practice deep breathing.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen

Hi Roxy,

I am glad that you were able to get off of the effexor fairly easily. I know it isn't the easiest thing to do because I have been through it. I am now on 375mg a day. But am doing pretty good. I take abilify and xanax also. So I think that the combination is helping me.

I hope that the prozac is helping you. It is a good medication. And I hope that you are feeling better and enjoying your family. Sometimes it takes a while and we have to take baby steps, so don't be too hard on yourself if you aren't up to snuff right away. It will probably be a few weeks before the prozac starts it's full effects.

Keep posting and remember that we are always here for you.

Hugs, Karen