I am torn

I know this may seem like a radical idea, but most of my good ideas have been spontaneous. My problem is I don't know if i want to continue on in my community college career. See my dad is paying for it and its only 776 a semester full time. Its still alot of money and it is his money. But i feel this is not what i am meant to do in my life. Really im just taking it because for one it pleases my dad and its probably the only college ill ever attend, i have no idea what i want to do as a profession. I just feel like the class im taking is not what i want to do with the rest of my life, i feel like if i continue on this 2 year program im gonna be stuck doing this profession the rest of my life. What i really have the urge to try and get into is Halo 3, yes a video game professional. I am very good than most kids i play. when i see the pros play on the big screen its like thats exactly how i play they are not much different. If i were to find the right people and a sponsor or maybe not even a sponsor just get a job and pay for my ticket to mlg event. Sorry MLGPRO.com is the site. I feel like i have to try and go pro now or never. But i feel like if i tell my dad this he will blow up and basically kick me out of the house. A few years ago I told my dad i was thinking i wanted to go live with my sister and try to go college there. But he blew up and it was pretty scary he basically verbally abused me with words on how dumb i was for not applying myself in high school and so on. Thats why im afraid to tell him this radical idea that i want to drop out of my 2 year program and try to be a pro. He has married this stepmom of mine and she is freaking weird. 5 out of 6 of her kids have red hair and im stuck living with her youngest and i can't stand that sneaky ******. Its like im living with a family that i dont want to live with because my real family is across the lake but the house is full and i would feel like i would be a burden to them since they already have one burden my older brother who is afraid to go placed in public he is 24. Back on topic, the reason i want to try to go pro in halo 3 is if i dont do it now i will never do it and its better for me to try and become a pro than just say oh that wil never happen like ive been doing my whole life. I was really good in baseball but i was afraid to try out due to my social mentality so now i say wow what could of been everytime i think of baseball. Im really at a crossroads in my life or i can be just being dramatic. I feel like if i quit out of school my relationship with my dad will crumble. But i also feel like the time is now i dont want to live a typical human life of just doing the same job day in and day out living in a social bubble. yes this looks pathetic but keep in mind one of the guys on the championship team made 145k this year not including endorsements and this sport is growing. Please this is driving me insane i feel like its one or the other and i dont want to live the typical life of a office worker

Heeja Spaceman!

The good old Halo series... All those memories with Halo 1 for the PC (never got an xbox so I stuck with the first part on PC). In fact, I was also rather good at it.

For maybe the first time ever here on HW I don't fully agree with Karen, though there is a lot of truth in what she says. First and foremost, you must do what you want to do. Maybe you could ask yourself the question whether what would make you happier in the long, playing Halo 3 or finishing school. While Halo 3 provides more joy now, finishing school might result in a better job and a happier life in the long run. But you decide. Also please try to look at things from the other side as well. Not going to play Halo now might result in regret, but not finishing school now might result in regret too.

I think that is the best you can do, think about it carefully and as objective as possible. It is easy to see that Halo is were your heart lies at the moment, so it's all too easy to start bashin' school and praising the game. Maybe a Halo pro will last for only 2 years, and after that it just might be that your dad decides to quit your funding and you end up the gutter. It could be that you finish school and fall down in a deep depression because you feel like making the wrong choice in the past. You are the only one who is fully aware of the situation, so you choose.

One last thing though. Make your decision in total consciousness. Say to yourself "This is what I want to do know, and no matter how things turn out, I will never regret this choice". In fact, try to say that with every decision you make, so there will be no more regret and thus no more negativity deriving from it.

Take care Spaceman, and I hope to hear from you again!
Erik (also? an 18-year-old Halo addict :) )

Yes Karen, I do believe it is healthy to differ in opinion sometimes, though disagreeing might not be right word to use for me. I do agree with what you say, it is just I like another option a bit more .

But I will stop with this now, before even more confusion appear. Sorry for this slow-chat in your topic Spaceman, I hope you don't mind! Please keep talking to us!

Erik

I have to agree with Karen.You say that your schooling is just a 2 year program.That is really not that long.Get it done.It will make your dad happy and it will give you time to think what you want to do with your life.The halo compation will still be there when you get your schooling done but if you quit school ,make your dad mad then later he might not want to help you pay for it.Also most people dont go back after thay drop out.Even if you are really good it wont be so easy to get in to the compation and you might not make it.Extra schooling almost always helps you in the long run.