upset, need to rant..

Hi, just feeling the need to rant I have this issue with my new friend, I met her online a few weeks ago and everything was perfect we seemed to have a lot in common and I thought we will become great friends, but recently she got into contact with a cousin of mine that I don't get along with, and I ended up without knowing how this will affect our relationship spoke out about him to her.. and things started to go wrong...

she asked me do you know this guy, let's call him Mr X, I told her yea but we have issues.. and we don't get along even though he's my cousin. so she asked me why? I told her he hurt me and people whom I love over the years, there is something wrong with him, and that he likes to make fun of people to look better, and he thinks he's better than the rest. now she didnt like what I said and responded that I'm being childish about this, and she thinks Mr X is great, compasionet and a confident person.

I don't know what to do, I think I Should not have bashed Mr X, now she thinks I'm the one who's being childesh... I tried responding to her that I don't hate him and that I Just hate the things he does and that I think he is a good person inside but can't show it, and all this happened because he was hurt himself as a child..

I don't know what to do I think I have lost a friend of mine because of Mr X.. I can't stop thinking about it , it's so upseting...

thanks karen that means a lot, it's comforting to know that your on my side, even though you don't know me very well, after all it's my WORD against mr X. I have tried to patch things up with him but it never worked and I kind of gave up on that, but the sad part is I feel this will haunt me , like what happened with my new friend.. my feelings now tell me maybe me and this girl are just not meant to be and this may be a sign.. who knows as you said I will try hard not to let this affect me too much, as a depressed person I seem to be sensative a lot about things like that, maybe more than normal people..

I am so sorry but I am to sensitive tonight to even answer this..........I am tired and starting to feel down, my sister is still waiting for date for surgery and I am not fit company for anyone.

Karen is wise and wonderful, her words are always kind and caring,  I would listen to her.

I am so sorry......................I need to sign off for tonight but will do my best to buy a new attitude before tomorrow.

Hugs to you Akram and peace.

Kitt