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Posted 2/15/2009 11:16 PM (GMT 0)
Well hi everyone, I'm guessing I may be pretty young compared to most on here, I'm 15 years young :) my name's amy and i live with my mum.

my parents divorced when i was three because my father was violent and abusive. the last time i saw him was when i was six, he promised he would be there for my seventh birthday and he never showed. birthdays are always really hard for me. i grew up in a bad area and got bullied- physicaly, i was pushed down stairs, kicked, hit, beaten all at school for three years untill me and my mum and older brother moved away. for the past three years I'd been depressed, i rarely spoke to anyone, i attempted suicide and i was never happy. i moved away and started a new school and i was okay for a while but now i'm having trouble at school and i cant cope. i cant eat or sleep, i'm really feeling alone and low. i'm trying to hold on but everythings been getting to me. i was sexualy abused last year and i cant tell anyone i know because i'm afraid of what they'll think. if anyone has any advice, it would be greatly appreaciated.

xx

Posted 2/15/2009 11:53 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Amy,

 

Welcome to healing well.  You are so young to be having to go through so much pain.  I really do feel bad for you.  But you have come to a good place and that is good.

Do you go to any counseling?  I think that would really help you.  Sometimes it takes a while to get to trust your counselor, but in time it happens and you can get all these things out and in the open and deal with them. 

I am sorry that you feel that you can't cope now at your new school.  Is there a school counselor that you can talk to?  I am sure that your freinds wont think bad of you for what you have been through.  This wasn't your fault and you need to know that.  You didn't do anything wrong.

On that note I will end here, I hope that coming here will help you.  But I strongly recommend counseling.  I really think that you would benefit from it.

Keep posting and know we all care about you.

Hugs, Karen

Posted 2/15/2009 11:58 PM (GMT 0)
I haven't had counselling, it was offered at my last school but I didn't want my family to know. if that makes sense. there is a teacher at my school who has offered to talk to me- but i dont wan't him to think i'm crazy for having suicidal thoughts. most people just say it's a teenage phase.
also- is insomnia any way linked to being depressed??
Posted 2/16/2009 12:21 AM (GMT 0)
Oh yes,

Insomnia is very much linked to depression. Some people get that, and some want to sleep all of the time.

I hope that you talk to your teacher. There are many depressed teens, so I am sure that he wont think that you are crazy.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 2/16/2009 12:24 AM (GMT 0)
Oh, okay thanks, I thought I was going even more crazy for a while...

and i think i will, my boyfriend has reccomended i do, as he's very worried about me, and so I'm hoping it goes well once the holidays are over!

thanks for the support :)
Posted 2/17/2009 11:55 PM (GMT 0)
Miss T.Please seek out the help you need.15 is real young. To young to deal with sexual abuse by yourself.This is not something that just go`s away with time.Most females who are sexually abuse need counseling and I feel that someone as young as you are really needs help to deal with this.Please talk to your teacher and ask her to help you find free or low cost counseling.Remember that this was not your fault.I am sending you a great big ((((((HUG)))))) and a prayer that you get the help that you need.
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