advice?

Hi,
I'm writing this forum because I really need advice from someone. Although I haven't been diagnosed with depression I guess its fair to say I have been very sad for the past few years. There are a lot of people who have hurt me in my life, and I guess thats what is making me sad. My mum stopped being a mother when she met my abusive step dad six years ago and they now live in another city leaving me behind. I never really had a father, my parents got divorced when I was young, and I see him for lunch every couple of months, he's remarried and has a step son. I used to have a strong group of friends in the city I used to live in but a few years ago we had a huge falling out and no longer speak. The only people I have in my life now are my friends here. They all have a lot of problems with alcoholism and eating disorders which affects me. I know these girls don't like me for who I really am, and I feel so self conscious around them. All together I have a really unstable life, I've just moved into my fifteenth house and I'm only eighteen. I find it so hard to cope with everyday life and I'm only ever at peace when I am practicing some form of "escapism"... I really can't keep this up any longer because the ways I try to escape from my unhappiness just further remove me from a normal reality. I find it so hard to set goals because I'm just trying to make it through every day that I can't even begin to think about the future. I know I need to raise my marks to get myself into a university but I just can't. Whenever I don't have a way to escape life is unbearable, its just really hard to live.. and I know that might sound pathetic but I'm trying really hard. I find I'm a lot happier when I'm on my own but its so lonely all the time and I don't have anyone who understands me. I try to be really optimistic about all of this but I'm finding it really hard. I know I need to talk to a school counsellor or something.. but how? I worry that they wouldn't help, I'm very self aware and understanding of why I feel this way and its not like I have "problems" I need to solve.. I just don't know what to do.

pezpez

Hello and I wam sorry your in a bad place right now.  You have been moved around so much that it sounds like you may have gotten lost in the shuffle.

Is it possible for you to see a physician and confirm your diagnosis..............therapy is another idea for you.

CBT, Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

The MoodGym Training Program is a free online program, please check it out as it has helped many.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

Just click on the link.

Kitt