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Posted 3/19/2009 1:28 PM (GMT 0)
I'm posting this on both the anxiety and depression board because I'm not really sure where it belongs. I have a doctor's appt. Friday morning and I need some advice before then. I've always thought the majority of my problems are/were anxiety related (anger, weepiness, mood swings) but my old doctor would never discuss this with me. All she ever wanted to do was up or change my depression meds. That is until I took a panic attack and ended up in the ER. Only then did she decide to give me ativan .50 2X a day to take the edge off, It may have helped some but apparently it's a pretty big edge! I've since switched doctors and this is my first visit with him, discussing this.

One of my main problems is weepiness, I guess you want to say, especially with authority figures like my boss and my mom. The other bosses I'm around are fine but this one is an evil evil man and made it clear from the beginning that he did not like me, without ever getting to know me or anything. Anyhow last night at work he made a comment to me and the one other operator. Not 5 minutes later I'm bawling like a baby and I cry whenever I think of it or other things he's said. He, of course, knows he gets to me so he keeps digging. My husband says I should "grow a pair (sorry if that offends)". I'd love to but as soon as the next night comes he starts again. Talking to HR is not an option as he's the plant manager's neighbor and that's the only reason he was hired. I'm with the company almost 17 yrs and am trying desperately to hold on until he retires. Other people let it roll off of them and not let it affect them and I just want that to be me so desperately!!! My mom is another story entirely but it's better since I've limited my time around her.

Is weepiness a symptom of anxiety? I've seen answers of yes and I've seen answers of no. Do you think more Ativan or a different medicine would help? I'm just looking for advice to take to the doctor tomorrow. No, I do not do counseling as I live in a rural area and am limited with counselors. Thanks for listening and thanks for any advice. I work the overnight shift so I'm off to bed.

Jean
Posted 3/19/2009 3:40 PM (GMT 0)

dear jean,

i feel that your emotions are stemed from situational responses. your boss seems to want to control you so that this person can push you to whatever this person wants out of you. the anxiety/depression may well be that, that you may have anxiety and depression. i am not familiar with the drug you posted. however i wish you well, and send compassion to you. me, at one stage i cried, more balled for 3 years straight, i still cry every now and then, life is hard, and esp when you are worried about your employment. keep well and keep posting. we are here for you.

jamiee

Posted 3/19/2009 3:42 PM (GMT 0)
Hey there , I answered you in the A & P Forum.......... :)

Posted 3/19/2009 5:44 PM (GMT 0)
I've been depressed probably my whole life. I was the "shy" kid in high school. I begged for help when I was in high school but my parents thought I was being over dramatic. I'll admit I even tried to end it back then.

I'm sure it is part situational, I have no doubt about that. But I just want something that will make it not happen or happen as much to me, especially with him. Maybe it was worse last night because I've got my period and Im also battling a sinus and ear infection, not sure. I just want something that will make what he says to me roll off my back the way it does other people.
Posted 3/19/2009 6:11 PM (GMT 0)
You can program your mind to let things roll off of your back. It just takes practice. So keep trying, you have addressed the problem here, now all you have to do is not let this person get to you. You have started on your journey to healing by coming here.

Keep posting as we are here for you.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 3/19/2009 6:14 PM (GMT 0)
Would not even begin to try to diagnose which it is but I do know this forum will help and you sound like you have made the right choice to get a new doc. My thoughts are with you. We all are at times put in situations where we have to deal with bullies but some can handle it better than others. Just because it upsets you does not mean you are insufficient and any area. Let us know how you are doing after new doc visit. Hope you feel better soon.
Posted 3/19/2009 6:22 PM (GMT 0)
well put jezzie51. in total agreeance. thanx jamiee.

Posted 3/21/2009 8:20 PM (GMT 0)
jezzie I understand that but some people are REAL good at making you question whether you are insuffecient!!!
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