I just realized how hard it is to hold down a full time job when you have depression................

Hi Gem: I'm sorry you had such a tough day.  You are right that working full-time with depression is a difficult thing.  I'm not sure if you have anxiety to go with it, but that makes it twice as hard too.

I wouldn't take the things said to you at work too personally, especially if it is from co-workers.  People at work are not meant to be your friends.  Even if they are friendly at one point in time things always change as your work environment changes.  Also, many people are just catty or mean to begin with.

Last, when you're depressed it is harder to ignore some things or laugh the stupid things off.  Since you feel so awful inside and perhaps physically --everything and everybody around you is so much more difficult to deal with.  My advice is to take some time and do something special for yourself tonight.  Perhaps a bubble bath, a long walk outside, or curl up in front of your tv with a takeout meal.  And go to bed early, because being tired with depression makes everything so much worse.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow.  And if you need to vent again or talk please come back.  We've all been through this too and are here to help.

Cass

Hi Gem,

I agree....it's hard to be around a lot of people when you're depressed. I find it to be really draining, especially in a workplace where you have to keep a certain "professional mask" on. I hope you are able to rest and recuperate at home and find time to nurture and be kind to yourself. We often have to build ourselves back up when other people try to tear us down. I really hope things will get better for you.

Thanks everyone!  I do feel better today because I went home last night and gave myself a mental attitude adjustment.  Thankful I have a job, just go in and do it and keep to yourself until the Celexa kicks in.  i do have alot of anxiety on top of the depression, so right now I feel really crappy.  But everyday that passes is one day closer to feeling better, that is all that keeps me going.  My spouse is supportive but I have totally burned him out, so I have to stop talking about it to him and dwelling on it.  This has been going on for a year when I was put on many meds that I could not tolerate because I was being treated for bipolar with high powered antipysch drugs that only made me worse.  Thank goodness for my new Dr. and her soft approach and taking the time to really listen to what I was saying.  I think old Doc was confusing my anxiety with mania.  At that point I was probably not conveying feelings to him in an appropriate manner.

One day at a time..........

Thank Again, Gem