update, not great.

hi gang, going red, to left of some anger.

 

well, i am definately being punished by one my lady's carer, no show last fri, nor this wed, had school monday, was awake 2 days prior, slept finally tues, wed waited, and tonight another no show, well her carer is keeping her word to punish me, as well as the darn agency, sorry, i am f'n mad, oh well i hope my lady cracks it with them and bites the bullet to see me. got my metal on, this compassionate man wants to smash something, na, just extremely angry, as as much as they are punishing me, they are doing the same to my very loving lady who would be just as darn mad. i sent her a text to meet, obviously some form of intervention has happened. can not put my head on the chopping block anymore, for i will lose it, both physically, and metotphorically!!!

 

what is bloody wrong with people, heck we love each other, i will not conform to any agency, carer or family members, they have spit in my face enough!!!! sorry for he implode. and language. will be okay, i hope?

 

jamie

Hi Jamie,

I am sorry for what you are going through. But I agree with Kitt, stay in the moment. It makes life much easier on us.

I too have been doing a lot of thinking, and have to take my own advice. So your post actually really helped me. A reminder of my way of thinking.

Take care my friend.

Hugs, Karen

Jamie,

I am so sorry to hear this. Why is there so much anamosity? Why do they treat you in this way. What does your girlfriend say about it? Please let us know. Maybe we can help you with this situation. Maybe I missed something in the posts.

I hope that things work out for you and your lady. You should be together and be happy.

Hugs, Karen

simple, because of the sins of other men. that is it. a sequale of abuse. and because i am a man. and because i am less disabled than my girlfriend. all suggestions will be received with much thanks. i have decided to do nothing, if she truely wants to be with me, this i know, then it is time for her to break free and visit. sad that i have to do this, not see her at our usual place-well she hasn't been there anyway, thus it is for her to decide if she wants a fair-dinkum relationship with me or not. she well may be struggling to break free, i can no longer fight for her with this, i will when she makes a decision, then i will pull the big guns out, yet for her i need to see her fighting for me, herself, thus for us.

hoping you guys don't think i am being a real ******, i have pushed the boundaries to their limits, time for my lady to fight to, praying she does, she is fiesty!! love to all.

jamie

Jamie,

Remember to keep the faith and not give up.  You have made a wise decision and now it is up to your Lady Friend to decide what she wants.  She must make up her own mind and gving her space is a good thing.

I know you are afraid and that is making you most likely feel depressed as the situation looks poor the more time that goes by but don't you give up.

Does she know how much you care about her?

I am glad you have friends that care about you and are  coming around and remember you have us to support you too. 

You are in my prayers and stay strong.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt

Jamie,

I too am sorry about your situation. I hope that she comes through for you. I hope that she knows that you care about her. Maybe she is taking this for granted. Which is totally human. Take care of yourself and I am glad to read on your other post that you are having some good things happening this week.

Know that we all care about you.

Hugs, Karen

Keep your chin up Jamie, if it is meant to be, it will. Sometimes there is something else just around the corner. It sounds like her family controls her. I hope that changes soon.

Hugs, Karen

thank you guys, your support is received with much luv. and yes she is severly controlled by her family. jamie.

ps keepin' me chin up!!!