You are not alone! There are a lot of very good people here, suffering from depression and the lonliness that goes with it. talk to us when you feel like it. Maybe one of us can shed some light to help you find your way to feeling better. I know they have been a great source of encouragement of me. Last week I almost flushed my meds, this week all side effects are gone and I feel more like "me" than I have in almost 2 years. Getting well takes time, patience and the courage to admit that something is not quiet right.
Sending good vibs your way
Gem