Posted 6/19/2009 1:57 AM (GMT 0)
Hi.
I was diagnosed with MDD & PTSD 8 years ago as a result of my traumatic/abusive childhood. Everything had been going well, until I moved a year ago and had to leave my drs behind.
I really liked my psychiatrist, and she'd led me to believe that we would be able to continue together by phone appointments after I moved up here. But the last time I tried to make an appointment, no one called me back, even after I left a couple messages. Then a week later, I get a letter in the mail, saying the dr can't see me anymore. Basically completely abandoned me and shattered my trust. And I have issues related to feeling abandoned and having a very, very difficult time trusting people to begin with.
And this isn't the first time this has happened to me. The therapist I saw did the same thing to me, though she also changed her fee & cancellation policy completely without telling me.
Now, I found a new doctor here, but I've been having trouble with them too. They had a therapist call me to make an appointment with me, completely behind my back without talking to me about this at all. I refused to see the therapist, though I said a psychiatrist purely for medication maintenance would be okay. And I was told they would have a psychiatrist call me. After 2 months, I've heard absolutely nothing. Even after calling them to find out what's going on.
And then the new doctor won't refill my Lexapro, and I don't have any other doctors who would. Though, in light of all these negative experiences with doctors, I'm not sure I want to have anything to do with them or would trust them with anything.
Been without the Lexapro for over a week now, and I'm doing okay. Though I'm going to need to take SOMETHING, since my depression symptoms have always come back other times I've tried to go off it.
I like the idea of an herbal antidepressant, and was thinking of using St Johns Wort & 5HTP. But I don't know how long of an interval needs to have elapsed before I can safely take the herbs.