Im not sure what it is and Im super worried that its the medicine and that its not working..
Been on the Cymbalta like 3 weeks now and I really hadnt seen a huge difference. I thought maybe it was helping, since I wasnt feeling 100% depressed all the time.. But, now I am. Lately I have been feeling really down and out. I have been really distant from everyone, including my best friend who is amazing. He spent the night the other night and I felt like I was such a jerk to him because I didnt talk much and we didnt do anything at all except lay and watch tv.
Last night I cried and cried. All I could think was that I didnt deserve to be in the world with others who are "normal" and can have relationships with others and have friends and go out and be social. I just feel like I cant create new friendships and I cant be social and I cant operate with other people. My sleep is always messed up. Im always sleeping or tired. I do nothing..
I just feel like maybe I shouldnt be able to around other people. Like Im not ready... Its hard to explain. I just feel really down.
But, Im very worried that its the medicine.. that its not working.. perhaps even making things worse. I know it can take a lot to find the right meds...but I was really hopeful..
Whats wrong? What should I do.... Im just really upset right now... any help?