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Posted 9/21/2004 4:20 AM (GMT 0)

Hey all,

I am new to this site and could use some advice and support from others going through the same things as me. I've been depressed for several years and still fighting.  I have noticed that many people on this site is telling people to take one day at a time...they are completely right.  That is all I do to keep going, cause its hard to want to go on....I have two boys 13 and 15 and I do get some support from them...been seeing my shrink every three weeks and my therapist once a week...the sessions help to some degree, but you also have to do some things on your own as well...as I found out the hard way.  I bought a book called Getting Your Life Back by Jesse Wright, MD and Monica Basco, PH.D.  The book talks about the five keys to recovery from depression...It has help me to unlock some of my deman doors to my healing...my emotions is what causes me the most trouble...instead of problem solving I go to wanting to hurt myself.  I had to sign contracts that I would not do anything to myself until I talk to my shrink, therapist or people on my contact list....Well, I could go on and on and talk about other feelings but I won't...somethings are still very painful...I have been raped, voices telling me to hurt myself, bad thoughts about myself and life, I just want to get better and enjoy my boys and be a grandma much later in life :-)

Take care all, if anyone wants to email me its [email protected]

Thanks for your time and for listening.......

Posted 9/21/2004 11:34 PM (GMT 0)
Hello Chillin, im 15 years old and have suffored(sp) from depression for over a year now. Although i do not have kids and i have not been raped(im really sorry to hear that) i can relate to you tottally. And what uve read on the site is true, u should take it one day at a time. But sometimes you get in the state of mind that you cant control what you do. Im at this state a lot of the time unfortanetly, im on meds and have been for around half a year, i dont think they seem to help a lot. what i think helps the most is being with the people who you love. For me thats my girlfriend, when im around her i forget about everything band thats going on. I too am in therapy, i dont think that helps, i think getting out of depression is mainly a mind game, a game that im bad at. you must have the will to get out of it, and i dont have this will i speak of, i know it sounds hypocritical to say u have to have the will, when i dont. But im working on it, the thing that helps me the most like i said is when i talk with my girlfriendr and see my girlfriend, i tell her things i dont tell my mom. Ive cried with her, and im not one of those emotional guys, i wear black and i wear chains, but when i told her i cut myself and showed her i started to cry and so did she. But i think for you the best way for you to feel better about urself is to do as much as you can with your kids. so that they dont go through the same things that your going through. Because i can tell u, its extremely hard when your a teenager and going through depression, you remember  how hard going through peurbity was, imagine that plus being depresed 24/7. I dont know if im the only one who feels this, but who knows. I wish the best of you and your family chillin.

~Darkness~
Posted 9/22/2004 2:45 AM (GMT 0)

Thank you for emailing me.  You are my older son's age and I try so hard to talk to him so he understands what his mother goes through, he says he understands and he told me that he is there for me....I love my kids to death. tongue

 

Sometimes I think its will power too, but my therapist does not think so.

 

If you want to talk do not hesitate to email me.

 

chillin39

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