Hello WinterGarden,
Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum. I have had Depression since 1982 along with Anxiety. I know of the many struggles you have been through but look, here we are, still living our lifes.
Things can always be better but for me that has taken a lot of hard work and I suspect the same is true for you too.
I am so glad you found us.
Again a warm welcome,
Kitt