whoooooooo.. i really dont know where to start.. im new here and i really needed all your help.. please lend me ur time.. im leonard 26,, and i really think that Im gay but i cannot come out. nobody knows about this since all my action is the same for a real guy.. i play basketball, wear clothes the same as a real guy. Im working in other country and an island were only few people are here, without any sort of recreation except beaches.. Before i came here i already fallen to my two straight friends back home but time heals since i never have any communication with them since i started working.. The first is one is in high school and the next one is in university.. and I know they dont know anything about this since i have also a girlfriend.
Here is my story now, there's a guy here which i already notice since he arrived here in this country.. we seldom see other, only in church but this feeling did not really grew.. until one time that we started playing basketball together with our other guy friend. we decided to stay in the same house. from that time i promised myself that i will not fall for this guy i will treat him as my brother and my friend. we get along together, eat together, play together and everything, one day i just knew that im in love, his handsome, cute, with a good body and butt.. actually his in front of me while im writing this. lol.. i started to get jealous if his with somebody else.. his girlfriend is not here so im trying my best to help him.. to give the suppor that he needed.. i dont want to loose our friendship,, i want him by my side.. wat will i do to stop this feeling?? sometimes i feel also that he wants to stay away from me.. i dont know y.. But im trying my best to have him.. Im thinking that he smells something about me. but wat bothers me is he get along very well with a friend of ours that we both know as a gay (could not come out also), i feel very jealous when his with him.. what will i do, i want to let go of this feeling, but how can i, im seeing him every moment of my day. im thinking of transferring house but i dont know if i can live a single day without seeing him. i dont want him to know also of my situation,, i dont want to loose our friendship.. I love him so much..... truly madly deeply in love.. please help me..