don't know what to do

I was doing pretty well off the Lexapro, but my depression is coming back. Went off it in June, I believe, which wasn't my choice but my psychiatrist dumped me. Have also had a therapist dump me, and I have absolutely no trust in any psychiatrist or therapist at this point. While seeing a therapist probably would be a good idea, I cannot bring myself to look for one since it terrifies me.

Have been seeing a naturopath I like, and most of the stuff she's given me has been helpful, but she's leaving this month. There is a new naturopath who's taking over from her, but I haven't been able to bring myself to make an appointment with her.

I also have an old back injury which has been flaring up & preventing me from doing most things. I don't even know if I can ride my pony anymore, which has me very upset.

I've also been sick for most of the summer from being off the Lexapro, and I'm still not quite right.

please remember that not all shrinks are bad, yes shrinks deal with meds that culminate with a mental illness, this is their job. maybe a psychologist, esp as they deal in behaviour. if you do not require meds this is my suggestion, word of mouth is best. so ask who is a good therapist/psychiatrist/doctor-etc. all the best. jamie.

dx, mdd, severe borderline personality disorder.

Sayyadina, I too have seen things from both sides. All I can tell you is that there are good and bad nurses, counselors, psychiatrists, etc. It took me a long time to find the right ones. Keep on trying and you will find someone who meets your needs. I know how hard it is to get excited that someone can help you and be let down over and over. But when you find the right one, it's worth all that effort and the bad feelings about them go away. Good luck.