I'm just barley a teenager and already I feel as if my life is just too hard. I know that being a teenager is probably hard for everyone but when I was younger I never had problems with friends or family so I guess I'm just not used to all of these problems that I feel were just thrusted upon me simultaneously. Recently I was just kicked out of my social group at school and I don't have any friends any more. In fifth grade I had two best friends that I knew for three years and in fifth grade they told everyone in both of the fifth grade classes that I was a *****/****. I didn't know what this word meant and I didn't know that it was an insult so I kept trying to talk to people but all they did was say things like, "Get away from me, *****!" or, "We don't want to talk to you beacuse (friend 1) and (friend 2) said that you're a ****!" Everyone ignored me and for the rest of fifth grade I was alone. In sixth grade I met a new friend and we had a TON of things in common. Now, usually when I befriend someone I become friends with the friends of the friend I made(Sounds confusing, but, I hope you get what I'm saying). So I was let into the 'group' and made more friends. In seventh grade, me and my friend both liked the drama club and participated in it. We were auditioning for the same part in the school's first-ever musical. I got the lead and she was my understudy. She ignored me and started talking about
me behind my back with our other friends. In order to save what was left of our friendship I let her do the Saturday night show and I would do the one on friday, but she didn't change at all. Now only 1 person from the group of friends I was in talks to me but whenever I do, my old friend will walk up to her and put all the focus on her so I'm not being talked to. She'll also glare at me during class and I know it's not just me being paranoid because others have noticed and told me but haven't said anything to her. Her brother is friends with my sister and one day he texted her and said, "OMG, my sis is talking bout ur sis with my parents agian..." he also told her, "Augh, whenever ur sis cries or messes up at school she'll always come home & tell my parents and they'll all laugh at ur sis and make fun of her..." Now I didn't know what to believe so I hoped it wasn't true. This year her sister walked up to me and said, "You know my sister hates your guts right? She always talks about
you with my mom and dad and they all make fun of you..." What was I suppossed to believe? My "friend" who stabbed me in the back or her brother and sister who live with her and see everything she says and does? It just really hurts to see someone who brought you out of being lonely put you back in it and now my self-esteem is so low when I don't understand a math lesson or miss the ball in gym I freak out and get all depressed! I know I'm over-reacting! I've tried talking to the school counselors and even counselors in my district and they all tell me the same thing! I know that I should just ignore her but it's not that easy! She's in all of my classes but I don't want to switch classes because I'd rather be with people I know(even if they aren't my friends) than people of whom I don't know! And she's better than me at sports, in academics, etc. and I used to never care about
that! I didn't care! She was my friend and I was proud of her and loved that she was so amazing! I looked up to her! She was my idol and then she just threw me away like I was just trash! I don't even know what to do anymore... I'm probably just being a feeble-minded child.
I just want some good advice...