ANXIETY...............
I SAT ALONE ONE DAY,
THE WORLD WAS MOVING ALL AROUND,
BUT IT SEEMED AS IF MY LIFE WAS AT
A STNDSTILL.
THE DOCTOR"S SAY IT"S ANXIEY,
EVERYONE THINKS ANXIETY MEANS
NERVOUSNESS OR FEAR,BUT IT"S
DEEPER THAN THAT.
ANXIETY HOLDS YOU PRISONER,
YOU CANT LEAVE THE HOUSE.
THE DOORBELL RINGS,BUT I CANT
EVEN ANSWER THE DOOR,
THERE IS TO MUCH FEAR INSIDE.
YOU CANT EVEN ANSWER THE PHONE,
TELEPHONE FOR YOU,MY MOTHER YELLS,
I TELL HER TO SAY I WILL CALL BACK,
BUT I KNOW I WONT.
NO,NOT ME. THE ANXIETY EVEN CONTROLS
THAT. ALL THE PAIN RUSHES BACK UP WITH EVERYTHING I
TRY TO EAT.
I CANT GO OUT. THUMP,THUMP MY HEART
BEATS FASTER AND FASTER AND I CAN FEEL IT IN
MY CHEST. BEADS OF SWEAT,RACING,FALLING AND
RUNNING DOWN MY FOREHEAD.
ALL THE THOUGHT"S SWARM IN MY BRAIN.
THE FEAR AGAIN PICK'S UP,IT"S UNBEARABLE.
I"M SO FRIGHTENED,BUT I DONT KNOW WHY?
THE PARANOIA SWEEPS OVER MY BODY LIKE
A HUGE WAVE. EVERYDAY I HAVE TO FIGHT
WHAT SEEMS TO BE A LOOSING BATTLE.
BUT THEN I LOOK OUTSIDE, AND
I SEE COLORS.
I SEE LIFE.
I SEE SPIRIT.
I CAN DO THIS, BUT HOPE AND PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
written by Beverley.c. 5.11.2009