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Posted 11/30/2009 3:40 PM (GMT 0)
it's late again. 2.30am, slept all day again, cycling with dreams, need to speak to my qwack, will type it out. at least the house is clean!!! a lot on my mind, georgia's 3rd anniversary comes up on the 4th of december, i miss her and i love her, yeah beautiful memories, and beautiful true love, something we still share. as i said on another thread i have cried an ocean, i will be emotional, because i know that she loves me, **** this hard. especially with my lady in the here and now. i am so f'n tired!!! sometimes i want to get an oversized can opener to open my skull take out this diseased and mutated brain of mine, stick it in the hazard waste and stick a reco in!! yeah i'm dreamin'

if i keep on talkin' it is going to become gibberish, something i do well when i am overtired wired and sleep deprived. so i will say....see ya in the soup, hope i sleep soon, getting there, still in bombing out phase. a little p***ed off that the insomnia is bitting.

have a good one my hw family. cheers, jamie ps i have become this emoticon again!!! LOL shocked   skulls for the darned insomnia!!!!

skull   skull skull skull skull skull keep fightin!!!! idea

Posted 11/30/2009 6:11 PM (GMT 0)
Jamie,

Try to hang on to endearing memories of your past love. Time does heal. Though I know that it is hard right now. After my first husband died, it took many years to get over it. But I have finally gotten to that point. Though I still remember the aniversary date. It is a lot easier now. Been nine years.

Know that we are here for you and always will be. Take care my dear friend. You are one special person.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/1/2009 7:38 AM (GMT 0)

cheers karen,,time is helping the haealing process, still hurts occassionaly. pretty normal in the scheme of things!! first time i have used the ' N' word. but in this case i feel it is okay to do so. thx 4 sharing your experiences, my compassion to you. jamie.

Posted Today 3:15 PM (GMT 0)
today i think of you. be happy. to infinity and beyond my sweet. thank you for loving me unconditionally, as i you. my heart is filled with joyous love and my mind is swirling of beautiful times. hoping you are at peace and doing beautiful work, as i know you are. my love is with you, yesterday, today, tommorrow and for evermore. love to you my blessed lady. jamie.
Posted Today 6:01 PM (GMT 0)
Jamie,

That was beautiful. You are one special person.

Hugs, Karen
Posted Today 6:24 PM (GMT 0)
just an every day human being. picked some flowes early this morn. my neighbour will give me some roses, i have put them around her photo, my special diary and her leathermen. thinking positives, thx 4 your support karen.

ps, dentist yesterday, still infected, script 4 dental antibiotics given, no extractions 4 two weeks. still some embedded tooth in gum, very sore when put his finger there. no if all will be out at this appt. will advise. have slept, was up 34 hrs straight!! enjoy your day, cheers, jamie.

Posted 12/4/2009 4:38 AM (GMT 0)
Hey Jamie,

I am sure that you will be so glad when all this is over. I have teeth like yours, down under the gum. Was hoping that they would just ignore them. lol... No, I know better. They have to come out too.

I am glad that you are embracing the passing of your lady. It is hard when you lose somebody that you love so much. There are tears, but it is healthy to embrace this. I saw a picture of my dog on the computer today. Got me crying all over again. I hope that I get over this soon. I really want another german shepherd. Badly... Though I am afraid that I am just trying to replace her and I know that I can't. But I just go with it and know that things will get better soon. Having you all really makes my day better. The sharing of kindness and compassion is really something else. You are wonderful people.

Take care Jamie, keep in touch. When are you going to pop the question to your present lady? I am anxious for this to happen. I know that you got the ring.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/4/2009 8:43 AM (GMT 0)
  1. ring is paid but not in, this week-end she is away on respite. will have it around the 18th of dec, so around then.
  2. thx 4 your kindness. haven't cried yet....i still will.
  3. hoping the pain of your loss eases soon.
  4. here for you. with loving compassion, me. aka-

        jamie

Posted 12/4/2009 12:31 PM (GMT 0)
so, now i am crying. @#*%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my sadness of tears are just my rivers of love to my georgia. oh baby i just wish i could hold you.............forever. jamie. got to go. i am loosing it. jamie. sorry.

Posted 12/4/2009 3:49 PM (GMT 0)
Jamie,

Crying is so cleansing, so that is good. I am glad that you came here and talked about it. I am glad that you trust this site that much. You will get through this. It is just that season. You are such a wonderful person Jamie and truly appreciated on this site. Keep up the posting. Feel better.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/4/2009 5:01 PM (GMT 0)
cheers my dear friend.........your support is a blessing and i value it deeply. i am an open book i have nothing to hide, this took some time to learn, as i am me and i love me so i can enlighten others with compassion and understanding.

a song by an old 80's metal band saxon has this lyric as a part of a song called crusader, and something i go by. 'your future will honour your deeds' be good, jamie

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