I watched my first husband die of lung cancer in 2000. It was hard, but somewhere I got strength. I was also fortunate enough to have caring people to help me, I will never forget them.
When he died, I was holding his hand. I felt the energy leave his body and his face became so peaceful and youthful. So there is something to life after.
What you are doing is a wonderul thing and you will have help in the end. I am sure of that. It becomes a private thing at the end though. Just you and him, even if there are others in the room. I pray that you will have strength to get through this. It comes from somewhere.
Know that we are here for you during this difficult time. Keep posting and let us know how things are going.
We are your support group now and we all care about you and yours.
Hugs, Karen