New to this all... my mum died last year.....?

Hi I'm new to this so not sure what to expect or do. My mum died on her 48th birthday last september of breast cancer, I nursed her til the end. In the past couple of months I have been feeling really down, turning to food for comfort eating, crying uncontrollably. I now live in my mothers house until we sell it, with my partner and our two year old little boy, I can't stand living in this house it seems to make me feel worse. I have terrible mood sings and my poor partner is the one who has to deal with it, I feel constantly tired, slepp ok sometimes but still feel completely knackered anyway. Somedays I could just sit and stair at the blank wall, if I didn't have my son I would just spend all day in bed. I don't know what to do, I want to stop feeling like this, it's horrible but I don't want to go and have counselling, I tried it but found it hard talking about it with her face to face was wondering if anyone here could help me? Thanks

hi, first off let me say im sorry about your mom passing. i, too, just recently lost my mom to hep c and cirrhosis or should i say complications to it.

first i think living in that house sounds like a bad idea at this point as it may be fueling the depression. i know this saying is overrated and some say may not be helpful but for me it was. she is no longer in pain anymore and you need to remind yourself about that. think about what she w ould want for you. she wouldnt want you to be depressed. now in retrospect i know that is easier said than done and you may be still grieving and that is understandable but now you need to find a way to pull yourself from the depression. counseling does help and i strongly reccomend it. another is get up and celebrate your moms life, it may help i know it did for me. this past january was my first year on my moms birthday without her and i turned on some music, and dance and sang to my moms urn( i know stupid eh) but you know i didnt get depressed and i felt great, actually made me feel as if my mom was there.

you have a right to be depressed but you need to deal with this grief for your son and your spouse. i know it is hard and i know about depression as my hubby had it and my mom and my grandma. i am no way saying that it is wrong to feel such a way either i am just trying to help you and i hope you see that.

 i lost my mom 9 days ago , dont know what i feel , am sad for sure , cant pick up the phone every sunday and call her .... life sucks right now .....have to be strong for my son and other family members ...but sometimes , i dont wanna be strong one ...cause i am not strong right now....i need to drive out to desert and scream and cry ...i keep everything inside..ppl ask how ya doing ? .. i say OK....cant they tell i am not OK ??? should i tell them I am not OK ??? Sorry for unloading , dont post much , but am always here.....cause i dont know how to share my feelings i guess....anyway thanks for listening , hugs annie

thank you Karen , i feel like we are old friends , evn tho i dont post much , you give such great advise and comfort to those who need it ....i dont talk much to ppl about my private life , dont have a therapist ...i dont want one .....have trouble even posting , even when i know i can share something with someone ....like i said i just need to go out to desert , cause i live in one.......i just dont know how to mourn , idk ....just have to be strong for my family , and i am the baby , lol ...go figure  lol i will be ok ....hugs annie

annie, my sincere condolences over your loss. my heartfelt compassion to you. am here for you. jamie.