Want to be Strong

Hi u all I had a best buddy of mine who was my boyfrend for 7 days(sounds funny but its not dat funny!!).We wre like dis great frends who shared ne thing and everything and he lives far away in Houston...and suddenly his career graph started declining and he blamed me for never being der for him.He called it a quit and immediately ran into arms of his ex and his ex told me to stay away from him(she was always insecured bout our frendship)!!He is still hiding dat we were great frends from her and also our level of intimacy,we tried to be frends after dis incidence but every time we try to keep it normal things dnt be da same as dey were...and I cant keep fooling myself from da fact dat he is hiding our frendship from a gal(also it kills me to see him go back to her)!!and hence I have called it a quit inspite of him wanting us to be best buddies...I am not depressed and I am very optimistic but inspie of dis sometimes da mood reaches it's bottom and all the thoughts come flooding into the mind!! I think I have done a very accurate thing by keeping away...but i wanna be kickassed and strong again!!