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Posted 3/14/2010 11:26 PM (GMT 0)
I slept with my friends mum and last night I did something really bad, I had sex with an ex girlfriend when I'm seeing a new girl. I don't know why I done this things, I hate people who do them and I can't get it out of my head, I can't concentrate on uni or anything. I don't want to tell the new girl I'm seeing because she's amazing and I want to be with her. She is the most beautiful thing in the world, why on earth am i doing this stuff?
Posted 3/15/2010 1:51 AM (GMT 0)
hi olivon, jamie, male, 37.

nobody really knows why we do certain things, but i sense that maybe you do. things trigger people, was there a trigger for you? we all make mistakes-stuff up. i hope you forgive yourself, by doing so you can show remorse to your current partner. hoping this helps. with compassion, jamie.

Posted 3/15/2010 2:04 AM (GMT 0)
But with being with her, are you going to continue doing these things? If so, you know you are going to hurt her in the long run. Is that fair to her? Maybe you need some counseling to figure out why you are doing this. It might save your relationship. And honesty is really the best policy.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 3/16/2010 5:39 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you for the understanding replies. They mean a lot, I can't speak to anyone about these things because I am ashamed but here I am anomonous.

I've been thinking about the whole thing a lot. I seem to have this self destruction thing that is a part of everything in my life. I think I pretty much ****ed up my whole life yesterday. I missed a uni deadline for my final project by not handing it in. I'd written the proposal! What the hell is wrong with me. Why would any sane person do that. I didn't even think about it. I knew I had to take it in all the time I was trying to distract myself from what I was doing. Art is my passion yet I just probably got myself kicked out of the best Uni for my course in the UK. I don't deserve to be there. I just scraped in on talent. I didn't work hard.
Posted 3/16/2010 6:26 AM (GMT 0)
my suggestion is to get in contact with your uni. course co-ordinator, counsellor, etc. i am sure condiserations can be made, you may require a letter from your doc. i had extra time when i was at uni, exam privilages-quite room, study notes and extra time on papers. mine was done through our disability liaison dept. i would definately look at this. with compassion, jamie.
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