Posted 3/25/2010 8:38 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Emmeahm,
Welcome to healing well. It sounds like you really could use some help. Maybe counseling??? It sounds like you desperately need some. Talk to your doctor about it, or call your local mental health facility. Counseling really helps and it is desperately what you need right now.
You will face the court hearing when it gets here. Try to relax until it happens. I am sure it isn't going to be as bad as you perceive. You didn't do anything wrong and justice will be served. Just try to relax.
I am sorry for the loss of your baby. And I am sorry that you felt the need to overdose because of it, but I am wondering what you thought that you would accomplish by doing that. Maybe you just wanted the pain to go away. But you needed to face that pain. It is a part of us growing, even if it is a terrible thing. And I am truly sorry for your loss. But you need not get stuck in time here, it is now time for you to move on. I think facing the hearing is going to be good for you. It will make you stronger.
You can learn to love life again. But like I say, you have to deal with what is at hand, and then move on. The world does not quit because we have bad things happen to us. So moving with it is the way to go. Take life one day at a time. Try to forget about the past and try not to worry about the future. Stay in the moment. You can do this. I know that you can. Just don't give up.
Hugs, Karen