The Infinite Search for Guidance

I think i've said most of it in the subject title.

My search for guidance has led me here, and although I was hoping for something a little more 3D, this seems like a nice enough place.
Im not actually sure that Im 'depressed', but when I think back to how I used to look at the world, I think now I might be viewing things through some kind of melancholic veil. Some might call that 'growing up' but i've always seemed to idealize things - girls, groups of friends, the future, and i cant help but feel that has changed. Which is a shame.

I've always thought that viewing the world in an idyllic way and romanticizing things was a positive part of my personality, and i used to be quite happy about it, comfortable with it. It was all rosy grand. when i tried to psychoanalyze, i never thought of it as deluding myself although i did realize that maybe having that sort of outlook, might mean i'll never be truly happy, the grass is always greener n that.

I do take time out now and again to try and tie up all of my 'issues' for lack of a better word and figure things out in my head, but of course I'm very bias. So i've concluded that what I perhaps need is a constant. Someone or something to bounce ideas off, and maybe some kind words occasionally. I think it would have to be someone of a greater intelligence than my own if that makes sense, like a nice chat with Dr House.
I know my friends are an obvious choice, but we're all students, and they've their own things to consider.

So yea, guidance, bit of light psychoanalysis.. any takers?

(and I know you mean well, but please don't suggest god)

I am glad that you have joined us here, but want to recommend counseling too for guidance. When you have so many questions, it is good to have a professional ear to listen and give you support. Though we can give you our opinions, we can't counsel professionally. So please consider a counselor along with HealingWell.

Hugs, Karen

wishing you peace and harmony. thx, jamie.