having a hard time being..me i guess

I am a 20(21 in september)yr old girl. I have a boyfriend of a year and about 7months. in 2009 his uncle got hit by a car and passed away,then his grandmother passed away, then my uncle passed away and two days later my boyfriends mother committed suicide(itll be 6 months on may 28th) in may of 2008 i was raped and 2 weeks later i found out i was pregnant and then my new bf and i started dating despite my pregnancy(i lost the baby at 2.5 months) then later in september i became pregnant again by my new boyfriend(i had a miscarriage with that child as well) found out i was Rh negative and that was why. Lately I seem to just keep thinking about the babys(since everyone around me is having them) I have noone to talk to really cuz he gets mad when i bring it up. I have flash backs of the day in may of 08. I dont know how to go about talking about all this really. I just know that it takes at least 2 hours for me to fall asleep, i gained weight, i cry at least 2 times a day, I really am trying to not let this get in the way of our relationship :(

Hi there,

I agree with Jamie, talk to your doctor. I think that is the best place to start. I too am so sorry for your losses. You ahve been through a lot. I hope that seeing a doctor or a counselor will help you. Get out there and seek this help, as you need the support of a professional. In the meantime keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Best wishes to you my friend.

Hugs, Karen