Hey guys, not sure if I will be continuing posting....

Hey all...just Misunderstood again, feeling as the name might allude to. I appreciate the help and time given by those kind people who have over my short time here...I don't know...from reading some of the other stories I feel somewhat as if I am not really suffering as I think I might possibly be. Maybe its all just in my head and I shouldn't be complaining. I think I have no answer, that there is no definitive solution, I just am what I am and that's literally all there is to it. I do not want to waste all your time replying to my posts, which from my prospective, are relatively without the importance due to your time in helping when there are so many others who need it more. I'm sorry that I have wasted so much time in my ranting and nonsense and lengthy posts. I will leave my account open for my email to be left available, and I wont quite stop coming just yet I don't think. I'm not sure about just about everything so I won't act like I am about this. It just seems to me that a knot can be untied...even if its a tight, difficult one. If you are dealing with a dreadlock though, sometimes they get to the point where its so interwoven and entangled that there is no hope. I feel like the dreadlock...but at the same time I may just be "off the beam" and am looking for something that does not exist.....ehhh *shrugs*

keep with us. that dreadlock, well, one dready at a time. jamie.

Hi Jamiee! I have been reading most of your posts and find that you are a very kind, caring man. Like some others said that it's possible that a lot of members are in more pain than you. Jamiee you know that all people handle (manage) painn different ways. You always post such positive messages. Please don't leave. You would definitely be missed! I joined HW in January. Are you in Australia? Take care and keep posting! Donna from east Texas

willowsgrandma. going nowhere sweetie. trying to keep misunderstood posting and with us. thx 4 your kind words, yeah pain sucks, all pain that is!! thx, jamie.

Manyembers,

Just wanted to say that I am so happy to see you posting and I hope that it continues. You are such a special person and very wise.

Keep up the good work. So happy to see you on the forum.

Luv and hugs, Karen

Hi -misunderstood-,

I am so happy that you decided to stay with us. I think you will learn that this is such a good place to come and post on. Be it venting, or giving advice. Your posts are greatly appreciated.

Harrington is wonderful isn't she? She is so kind and compassionate and very supportive. I am glad that you both are here on the forum.

Keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. The weekends are generally slow, but sometimes they aren't. But if you don't see a lot of new posts, that is why.

Know that you are a valued member here. And we all come together for the same reasons. Depression is so hard to cope with at times, and it is nice to know that you are not alone.

With that being said, I hope that you have a wonderful day today. Keep the faith!!!

Hugs, Karen

I just wanted to add, listening to some Blues Traveler can also do wonders for your mood :), hehe Good Luck!

The music is all pretty good :) hehe and that is ok, I am old inside I've been told by many people, and now that I think of it also from my chiropractor lol, anyways age has little direct correlation to musical taste ;) Good music is good music, modern culture just doesn't have it right. I may be 24, but for me I feel that it has very little bearing on basically everything. Experiences make the person, hehe sometimes you just get them all crammed in early, sink or swim style. Haha I just looked as saw its noon, ahh the slings and arrows of insomnia, not even sure if there is a point to sleep now. *shrugs* more music it is

Yeah I am doing my best at the moment to induce a good mood. I did not sleep last night, and yeah I have been having pretty bad issues with insomnia, I'm usually up all night and sleep a few hours during the early afternoon. I might end up taking a nap if I feel tired, but at the moment I am pretty awake. While im waiting on this hernia surgury I can't do a whole lot, so I don't use much energy, and even before this I was a night owl always. Yeah and definitely once your up late enough it makes it harder to sleep, I might end up getting like 2-4 hours, but being noon as it is im not really sure if its worth it. Been posting for the past, jeeze, probably 3 hours I think, just listening to different bands on grooveshark.com, which is a great/comprehensive music source. (onto Steve Vai now)

I think it feels that way to me too :). And I'd say you did not play a small part in it, but an integral part. I am also happy that you are a part of the site that I found my way to. It may seem somewhat counterintuitive, but I have been thinking for a while about becoming a counselor. Having dealt with my mothers problems and also with my own, I believe I have the chance to help many people. As much as this was a place I came to looking for help when I first joined, I realize now it is a place where I can both exercise my hope of being a counselor and really help people while I do it. I believe I am going to be here for a while now, probably even after I become a counselor (if i do) because this is a great place where many people come needing help. Thank you all for taking me in and I can only hope to reciprocate it by doing the same for others, and to answer any question that I can.

YES!!! JAMIE.