the littlest things...

its surprising how just one thing can set you back so far... today i was listening to music on my way to work and a specific line caught me off gaurd and knocked me way back into isolation again. over the past few days i was becoming more optimistic about things but now thats shattered into a million pieces... the lyrics reminded me of a person who was and still is even though they arent in my life anymore, the most important and amazing person i have ever met, she was everything to me and now we dont talk for weeks, even months now... i really miss her and i don't know how to get her out of my head... now im back into isolation mode again and it just seems like im never going to come out of it without getting knocked straight back into it again... i wish i could get out of this cycle...

steff

i guess most people can relate to that kind of feeling, it is totally normal i would think. it always seems like there isnt an end to it, seems like there is nothing that can pull you out of that bottomless pit where you keep falling and the light in the distance is fading, but then again, there are so many other things to live for. when you find something beautiful that can take your mind off what you know you are missing, then it becomes easier to deal with the void. you cant fill it up with one thing or person, but bit by bit, yo will find other things that make life worthwhile and beautiful. hard as it is to accept, some things just need time. believe that you will make it through and it will all be over soon. just believe that you will find other beautiful things in your life. i hope you feel better soon.

love, zia