pretty 23 year old post-partum mommy

I just had my daughter 2 months ago, was very happy but in the past week or two after moving in with her daddy changes everything. I just feel like I'm lost because I'm so anxious for her to grow a little older so quickly so i can be able to finish my last year of University which i will not be able to continue this September. The reason is for being there for my daughter day and night. After a long day, I cannot sleep. Then I think of the things I could have done with my life before having her, (not that I regret her) such as having a degree for a better job and actually having the funds to not worry so much. In a big way I thank my daughter for stopping my big partying habit in the past year in University because well, I was pregnant and achieved higher grades. Now being home all the time makes me wander around like a zombie when shes napping. No appetite, listen to music, and no motivation to clean up but listen to music or watch sappy love movies. My boyfriend recently started getting mad at me because I have no appetite like I used to, baking and getting excited about food stores. I never had a problem with my self-esteem either. How depressed am I?

Hi April,

Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. You have come to a very wonderful site. Everybody here is so kind and compassionate. And supportive too.

Congratulations on your baby girl. This is a miracle in itself. You will have so much joy.

I do agree with Lee, talk to your doctor about postpartum depression. You could be going through that right now.

You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders. I think you know what the best thing to do is. And yes, don't wish for them to grow up. They grow up too fast as it is. Enjoy these baby and toddler times. Create many memories. Take tons of photos.

Keep posting as we are all here for you. You will get through this. I promise.

Hugs, Karen

Hi April

Congratulations on the birth of your precious little one, what is her name? I think you should get yourself to the doctor as soon as possible and tell him everything that is worrying you before you sink any lower. Motherhood can be very overwhelming especially the first one, you have this little person who is absolutely dependent on you for everything in her life and you have to function whether you feel like it or not.

You can always resume your studies when she is a little older and that will be before you know it, believe me. In the mean time (before you get to see the doctor) just try and pick yourself up a little bit each day and do a little bit around the house each day but she is your number one priority, I'm sure you know that already.

Let us know how you are going and how you get on at the doctor, we all care and are thinking of you.