new to the group!

Hi Jen

Welcome to the Healing Well Depression Forum, we are pleased you found us and we will try and help you as much as we can, we are all really good listeners on this site.

I think you need to visit your doctor and tell him exactly what is wrong with you, you may need some meds to get you past what you are going through and maybe you should ask him to refer you to a counsellor. I know money is an issue, but perhaps your Human Services Dept could help you. (I am guessing as I don't live in the US).

To me, you sound like you have lost all your self esteem and of course you have good reason, with the little bit that I know about you, I think losing your job would surely knock your self esteem. Have you tried employment agencies, or just putting yourself out there, door knocking so to speak. I know your economy is still recovering and the job market is pretty tight, but once you feel well again maybe that is worth a try.

Everything seems worse when you haven't slept properly for days, which is probably why you and your mother are bickering. She is probably deeply worried about you as well. You will be able to take care of yourself, you just need some help right now.

Please feel free to share more with us if you feel up to it, nobody wants to pry into your personal stuff but if you want to unload more of what is troubling you then I just want you to know that I am here and I am sure the other good souls on here will also offer their help and support to you.

So Jen, please keep posting, see if you can get to a doctor and counsellor and let us know how you are going. Remember you are not alone here.

I am excited to see that there are lots of people like, me struggling

I have been seeing a doc and she ha suggested a counselor. I am suppose to meet Ms Amanda this week.
I am not sure what kinds of things she will want to talk about.

At this point my choice is a psychologist or a psychiatric

can you help with advice for everyday scenarios? things that have helped you make through a touch situation?

Jen

Bless your heart! Just reading your post makes me smile....it seems like you really care...and you don't even know me.

I am on medicine. I had been on Prozac for about 2 years, but feel as if it is not as effective as it used to be. My doctor and I have just switched me to Pristiq I am beginning the forth week regimine and I literally cried 4 days in a row...about silly things...this week.

I made it 3 days in a row without a tear so I am kinda excited about that. YAY YAY YAY!
I have looked into a psychiatrist (to help with meds) and also a counselor. Like I said money is tight so I don't think the psychiatrist is aviable opportunity at this point.

I have also found a Christian counselor.That first appointment is next week.

I feel that I am very good about keeping my hurt and sadness tucked away during the day but when i get home, i loose touch with reality and the owherwhelming feeling of evertythig attacks me and the tears start falling.

The kids I work with is the onlythinng keeping me together....

Jen,

sometimes you just have to let it out.  Crying is so cleansing.  Just let the tears flow.

I take pristiq too, I think it is a good med.  I take abilify with it and xanax for the anxiety.  They all work together well.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen

I chatted with my doc, she is increasing the Pristiq prescription. Pray with me that I can achieve some sort of calm base. We had the first night at VBS at church and as I sat and looked at others doing jobs I normally would do and it made me upset. I believe that I can help others, but with with "trash" i am dealing with i cannot be infront of children offering hope, when i feel hopeless.
Night was good overall. MY afternoon was shaky but stayed together.

YAY! SUCCESS!

I hope you guys had a great day!
Talk to you tomorrow!

Karen, the doctor increased me to 100 mg today.
NO difference yet of course...but I'm waiting

another great evening at Bible School! :)

HEY EVERYONE!!!

2 days on increased Pristiq...haven't cried...yay!
I have been doing Vacation Bible School all week, so I have been surrounded by positivity!
I usually struggle the worst on the weekends (because there is not a set schedule) and I get a few minutes to stop and think...

My goal for the weekend is to make it without crying either day...however today was payday and I am looking at a big stack of bills and a tiny stack of money....you guys say a 'lil prayer for me as you spend any money this weekend. I WILL GET THROUGH THIS!

It's been 4 days with my increased Pristiq and that has seemed to help...haven't cried once.
I'm feeling a tiny bit victorious!

Hi Jen, I was reading all the posts and I too wanted to welcome you here to the forum. You will find many wonderful friends here. I understand how you must be feeling. It is very hard to lose your job. I lost my job I had for 20 yrs. I went on vacation and when I returned all my things were packed up and I was escorted out. Quite a blow. I have had several jobs since but am now retired, mainly due to illness. I just wanted to give you my perspective since my 36 yr old son has always lived with me. He will be on his own come the fall. It is not easy for parents and adult childen living together. It doesn't mean that your mom doesn't just love you to pieces because I am sure she does. You are just faced with very trying times and you are struggling. I am glad that you have meds to help you through with your feelings. Keep trying with the job search, even if you have to take something that is not your field. But if you can earn a few dollars you will feel more positive. We all struggle in our own way and the most important thing you can do is to take each day as it comes,as Karen has expressed to you. Things have a funny way of working out and you need to concentrate on helping yourself to get through this rough time. You have the best support group you can find here. We are of all different ages but we all help each other. You can write your feelings anytime and someone will always be here for you. I have survived many problems through the kindness and comfort of all the people here. So please know you are not alone. I have very strong faith and if you do that will see you through these  times. Remember you are part of a wonderful support group. Take time for yourself and take good care of yourself. I will keep you in my prayers.

Hugs,

Aurora