I need advice from someone who understands

I've been upset a lot lately. I just moved across the country and have been married for a year to someone in the military. He has been gone a lot so I've been extremely lonely since I don't know anyone in the new town I'm in. While there I saw my doctor and she prescribed me Wellbutrin. I've been taking it steadily for about a month now.

After getting my prescription I decided I needed to come back to the town I grew up in and since I've been here I've been acting crazy. I drank with old friends on my 21st birthday and got extremely drunk, made an ass of myself, and was so flirtatious with everyone I talked to. It has been bothering me the past few days. My friend suggested that I go to counseling because whenever I drink I get flirty with anyone. She thinks I have an underlying problem, such as I don't get enough attention with my husband because he's always gone and out of contact. I just saw it as normal that people get out of hand on their 21st and it was kind of a socially expected thing. Ever since her and I have been talking though, I feel really guilty and I've been in and out of crying the past few days. I just want to go home and try to feel better with the new life I have waiting for me. My husband gets back soon and we agreed to spend more time together and go out and do more things, but I feel like I have to wait for him to get back to feel better because I can't think of anything to do to help myself.

The Wellbutrin isn't really working anymore and I feel worse than I did before I was on it. I have had an alcohol problem since I was 18... So I wonder if there is something worse going on with me and I need advice on how to feel better about my past and how to start moving forward and making the right decisions. Am I the only one out there that acts like this and does a lot of things they regret? I'm absolutely embarrassed and I need help. I have to wait to see a counselor until I return home in a few days, so I would like someone who reads this to help me. I need to talk to someone who has felt this way too.

Post Edited (BlackRose) : 7/19/2010 8:29:17 PM (GMT-6)

Hi Karen,

I didn't realize we couldn't write about that, but I edited it out, so thank you for making me aware.

Nothing developed more than flirting, but I am still uncomfortable with myself and pretty disappointed. I suppose I need to move on and I will eventually bring myself to get over it. It's just one of those things that eats at me because it's so bothering. The past few weeks I have been getting a lot better about drinking in moderation and not drinking until the weekend. I'll take your advice on quitting drinking. I have noticed ever since I started taking WB that I feel really depressed the next two days. That may be what is at play right now, but I am in one of those moods where I just want someone to talk to who is not going to judge me. That's how I found this website.

I'm brainstorming ways to keep busy now and I think I can handle that until I get home and my husband does as well. Thank you for your support and views.