Hi Smokesgirl,
Welcome to the HealingWell Depression Forum!!! I am so glad that you have found us.
I would recommend seeing your family physician first to make sure that there isn't anything physical going on. Let him/her know how you are feeling and see what they can recommend. You might just need some counseling, or you might need medications. But something is amiss and I think that would be the best place to start.
Best wishes to you, keep posting and let us know how you are feeling.
Hugs, Karen