doxy

after reading the posts on this page i have found my answer but the reason i went to the trouble of creating an account to be able to submit a post is because i would like to share my story in hopes that it will help the next person searching for a reason why these terrible thoughts and feelings of complete worthlessness are occurring...

i am 18 i was diagnosed with MERSA after a camping trip that unfortunatly i stayed on for longer than i should have by the time i got to the hospital my infection was quite bad i was given two antibiotics the names of wich slip my mind but neither was DOXY i was put on bed rest and finished my antibiotics at this point i thought i was better and began working again i work odd jobs and am a wildland fire fighter all my jobs are quite physical and exuasting a couple weeks after my first infection i was working on a fire and got an ingrown hair that by the next day was about the size of a quarter having had mersa recently i suspected that was the cause but i ignored it in hopes that i could keep it clean and maybe cause it to go away the next day i worked quite hard and found that the area had grown to roughly the size of a CD and become rather swollen i had that night off so i went to the ER and they ended up having to lance it open and drained what would have amounted to a shot glass or more of pus and blood out of the area then they bandaged it up and gave me medication they didnt say that i couldnt work so foolishly i went back to work the next day though early on i realized i was incapacited and stayed in the truck not workin my infection again grew and now was covering the whole back of my leg i went back to the ER and was immediatly told i would have to stay for a few days it turned out i was on a IV antibiotic drip for five days after witch i was released and given DOXY AND THIS STUFF IS BAD I HAVE NEVER HAD DEPRESSION OR MOOD SWINGS LIKE I AM HAVING NOW UNCONTROLABLE THOUGHTS AND A VERY HIGH LEVEL OF ANGER AND AGITATIONS INCREASED FEELINGS OF DREAD AND WORTHLESSNESS BECAUSE I CAN NOT WORK AND I HAVE A TRUCK THAT NEEDS REPAIR ALL IN ALL DAY TO DAY STRESSES THAT WERE EXTREMELY AMPLIFIED BY DOXY [/3} I BEGAN SMOKING CIGS AGAIN IN HOPES IT WOULD HELP MY ADVISE IS IF YOU HAVE RECENTLY QUIT AND YOUR ON DOXY NOW SMOKING WILL NOT HELP IV BEEN ON THESE STUPID PILLS FOR OVER A WEEK NOW AND I DECIDED TO DRINK LAST NIGHT TO CELEBRATE GETTING AN APPT. WITH MY GF THIS WAS EXTREMELY BAD I AM ALWAYS A VERY HAPPY GO LUCKY KINDA DRUNK LAST NIGHT MY MIND TOOK ME TO A PLACE I NEVER WANNA GO EVER I ENDED UP DRINKING MORE AND IN about AN HOUR FINISHED OFF MOST OF A FIFTH OF TEQUILLA NOT GOOD I WAS ANGRY AND RESENTFUL TOWARDS EVERYTHING I ENDED UP ARGUING WITH MY GF AND SAID STUFF I WOULD NEVER SAY EVER DO NOT DRINK WITH THIS ANTIBIOTIC JUST DONT I PLAN TO FINISH THE REST OF MY PREscriptION BECAUSE I HAVE LESS THAN A WEEK BUT IF I HAD TO TAKE IT LONGER I WOULD NOT TAKE IT THIS STUFF IS EVIL